[MysticalShaman]

My mother is an alcoholic.
In my dream I was trying to confront her and I felt so much anger. And she was purple (and deformed - as if the exaggerated alcoholism like red whiskey nose etc, slurred speech and dehydration)

I was so hurt and angry and frustrated and the dream made me realize this is how I feel about the situation. I feel angry at her, and yet I realize that she herself must be in a lot of pain but it feels like any attempt to help her is futile.

The well of emotions really overwhelmed me in the dream and I feel like I am still angry after waking up. It’s like the dream reopened those wounds I thought were not a problem ( I don’t live in the same country as my parents anymore ).