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I kind of think that personality fragmentation can cause mental disorders.
Where early life or trauma has created an environment where it has not been safe for all of one's personality to "embody" or integrate into one's reality.
We segregate parts of our personality which we do not feel safe to embody. It is a safety mechanism, to survive.
I avoided a bipolar diagnosis because I recognised that I segregated a part of my personality which did not feel safe to express as a child. It was directly related to trauma and it differentiated me from my bipolar mates.
I never felt safe to rely on other people or ask for help so that part of me "split" to keep me safe. I abandoned part of myself for safety.
SO I disowned that part of me for my own survival.
Though when I was able to "own" that part of me I was able to integrate and so I felt "whole" and not split. That is why, I feel, in my own case, that I do not have a bipolar diagnosis.
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