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Originally Posted by Flora
Did you ever talk to a doctor about this?
You know, maybe thats a condition that is part of your neurlogical system.
When tehe is realy nothing that makes you (just a little) happy in any way, please go see a doctor.
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You're right, it is more a physical condition, of feeling tired. No doctor necessery, as it's luckily not permanent, but temporary. And I'm finding ways to improve.
I've also found that making peace with the lack of emotion, that limbo state of wonder... Or the neutral zone, or tipping of the scales, once I make peace with that, it lasts less long. I go through it quicker. And the more I completely let go and allow, and have no expectation and be at complete PEACE with the reality or experience, or just being, and complete acceptance. Then I am able to pass through this limbo. Trusting that it is the way, trusting that I know the way. Which in this case, I am lucky that I do.
There is a resistance towards it, that backfires, and keeps me there longer in the end, untill I find a way to let go and accept it, then I stay there and be there and allow it to be what it is, and it just passes more easily. Also accepting that if it takes longer, that all of it is for a good reason and purpose and it is all for my most benefit. That even enjoying and relaxing into the length of the duration of the limbo. That helps me to really reset and transition into the new energies, that is due to further integration of the old. In that limbo.
I guess it is about trusting, that even no emotion, is still an emotion. And no emotion is better than negative emotion. And if allowed, no emotion, can become positive emotion. It is very subtle, and almost invisible, but letting everything be what it is, and allowing everything, really helps settle dust, and bring the clarity of new light. New energy, new inspiration and new reality.
I'm seeing positive improvement, it does take some time to really learn how this process works of shifting through the energy states. One thing I learned allot, from this experience, is really that it is all about perspective. I am not so much changing the energy, but perceiving one that already exists, that already is slightly improved.
I guess the resistance is about accepting that the old one will still always exist. And that it really at the same time, can never be experienced in the exact same way, anyway, so might as well move on. That is what makes it difficult to accept, yet easier also. And learning to really balance all of it, to find new footing to move forward into a new reality.
Crossing the treshhold, really requires allot of balancing of so many different aspects, into a sort of zero point of neutrality, and really integrate everything so completely, so as to completely, introduce a complete new reality, a complete new perspective, a complete new dimension, a new perspective that travels into a new reality. Causing the past and future, to coincide into the new realisation of the new reality, here and now. It is not about constantly waking up to a new dream. But more about becoming lucid in the dream one is in. And requires great acceptance. To the multi dimensional nature of existence.