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Originally Posted by Nameless
Girlsearching - I guess I should label this post - woman found LOL. I am a virgo, have been most of my life. Don't know anything about rising suns or moons, but I do know a heck of a lot about being a virgo. Things I didn't learn to deal with until much much later in life (most of what you said - catatonic shyness almost, terribly socially awkward, didn't want anyone to notice me, wanted to be the wallflower ) but was born with this incredible beauty that made people be drawn to me - which was quite horrifying, so I learned how to be invisible, pretty much.
So I'm hear to help you learn to deal with them.
First off, and sorry if this thread took a turn LOL, facing your fears is a big one. I got really really good at not being noticed, until I had to give a meeting in a room full of people. Not for sissies. The first time was terrible, I got my first panic attack (only had a few btw, so no worries). It felt like I was dying - my heart racing, my throat dry, my voice shaking, but I had to do it, and do it I did. And then I had to do it again, and I did it again, with a little less panic, then again and again, and after awhile, I loved giving meetings!! Who knew? Also I found out that excitement feels a lot like fear.
So I faced that fear because I was made to and came out the other side. Facing fears will be your friend. It is so hard, but you just have to do it, and people understand, they really do. Also it is pretty universal, to have a fear of public speaking. But for us virgos, it is torture at first.
As far as being shy and socially awkward, my husband told me over and over most of my life, they can't eat you. But that is how it felt. And nothing he could say helped that.
When I had kids and had to face down the teacher or the principal, I did it for my kid and I was their advocate. I didn't care what they thought, this was for my kid. So I learned how to be brave for my kids, and I taught my kids how to be brave when they were little so they didn't have this problem.
So life will help you, it will bring things to you that you don't really want to face, but you get to face it anyway. I say practice. Practice that thing you are afraid of, until you are not afraid of it anymore.
As I got older, it got better, but was still there, underneath lurking.
Here are two things that helped me. Life will change you, but here's what helped. It a bit woo woo, so I'm apologizing in advance.
A book called Soul Love, by Sanaya Roman, who channels Orin, a Being of Light who is simply love. There is a meditation in the first chapter - how to meet your "selves". I did fearful self first, because - yeah. I would read a sentence, then put the book down, and visualize that sentence, then read another sentence, then visualize that, etc. Each one took about an hour and you have to not be disturbed. After I did a few of those, and they were spaced in time about a month or so apart, I felt whole for the first time in my life. Highly recommend. I never finished the book, not sure why.
A challenge from a channeled book - Seth Speaks. Somewhere in there he challenged me to try these out for one week - to tell myself this first thing in the morning, and do each separately (separate weeks). And see what happens when you do, what syncronicities pop out at you, what thoughts you have.
#1 - I live in a Safe Universe
#2 - It never matters what anyone else thinks, it only matters what I think
If you can practice believing those (and you won't at first) your world will change.
Hope this helps
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