Hi I have edited my answer because it became one long novel, so sorry about that. My short answer is that my guess it is your subcounscious. You have to run through it even if you feel like rejecting it. I finally found my answers to why I kept having one of those bad ones play out and because I worked through it it don't show up no more.
Sorry you got those bad ones, hope it will pass for you soon, once you figure it out (and not be as slow as I have been, LOL).