Interesting, Gem, I was 19 when I had my talk with Jesus...ha
...
I said,
I'm gonna leave you for awhile.
Respectfully, it was implied:
"For awhile to find out stuff...deeper stuff.''
And off I went to the Key West Library on Fleming...and brought back my first pile of books from everywhere and diff geniuses,
Einstein, Jung, Russel, Greek philosophers, etc.....
only to return them and bring back Eastern books
...and off I went and eventually found
'It'...exactly what I was looking for ---and 'It' was inside.