You asked about the silver lining in this.
If it were me, NOW, with age and wisdom...I would say this to myself:
(And I do!)
"I know life is meant to disappoint us for one reason...so that we seek You, Lord, so that we seek
what never disappoints us and is always there."
It has a purpose, sis...what a painful, heartbreaking lesson, I think we all know!!
Do I think same sex heartbreaks are harder? I do...don't ask me why...
I wouldn't be able to explain without using psychobabble, probably.
If you ever want to change your name to Lioness...pm Lynn.
I did think you were male cuz of the name all this time.