[Native spirit]

Hi Mickeyesbeck

Religion is the root of most troubles all over the world.you sound as though you dont know where to turn and are really fed up as to where you really need to go, i would advice you to go to councelling in order for you to heal once the healing is taking affect,can you ,then can determin which way you want to go if any,you are not alone many people feel like you do,many live happy lives without religeon or spirituality,its not a law that you have to follow one path or another,
i would go see your doctor as i feel depression is evident here also

Namaste