Sorry, still confused, lol.

Its like im walking up the ladder as i progress but the ladder is there but cannot be seen or felt, I see like 5 legs, I hardly fall of to the 1st but normally am on the 3-4th leg and sometimes I reach the 5th, havnt been able to get past it.

Liek last night was going so well, but between the movements and my nose hurtignits hard

sometimes we have no choice but to focus on other things