I have always felt extremely old. I have said many times through the years that this is my last life. I have yearned for home for as long as I can remember. The funny thing is though, the farther along I go in my spiritual journey, the more open my mind is to coming back again. It was actually a few days ago that the thought came to me, "It might be fun to come back a few more times". That was a light bulb moment for me because, I have never and I mean never, wanted to come back again. I believe my life is so hard because, it is my last. If it is, then I'm wonderfully happy. If not, I will make the best of the opportunity.