[quote=PsyPrisoner]None I can trust...sadly..which is why i am looking for help here..[/QUOTE

..and you're being given it if you choose to to take it.....now as Laura said go get yourself grounded.......back away from the keyboard....don't look back .......get out of the house & go wrap your arms around the nearest tree.....the mind tends to grab hold of a concept & it'll drive you nuts unless you get outside of it...good luck