Wow, that is great information!
I didn't know any of that, so big big thank you! I'm going to copy it and store it with my notes if that's okay.
And so good that you've done so much already and have found the right ways to cope with certain situations! Kudos to you!
CCF (from YouTube) said you cannot do it alone as C-PTSD is created by people so it's an interaction - socialisation injury so to speak, and thus healing must be with other people as well.
Of course there are things you can do yourself but I guess it's similar to healing relationship wounds from having been with a narcissist. There's only so much you can do when single by yourself. Then it's wait and see how it pans out when you're in a new relationship as that's the area where the wound is. You cannot really get into that area on your own as a single.
It's the same with C-PTSD.
I feel fine when alone, many with C-PTSD do as then no one can upset & trigger them, so many withdraw and become like hermits. I am like that too.
For you being alone is a trigger, for me it's bliss, hihi. No one can trigger me when I'm alone, no one can abandon me when I'm alone.
So it's nice and relaxed, terrific comfort-zone, but in actual fact more like an social-emotional prison...
The thing I'm experiencing right now is that learning so much about it all begins to stir things up inside.
So I got a lot of inner turmoil going on but no help yet. I must remember to give them a phone call tomorrow. They were supposed to phone me back, so far that hasn't happened and I'm tired of waiting. I need help, that is becoming clearer and clearer.
I'm slowly beginning to understand the full extent and scope of this injury.
That means that right now I also have to be careful to not slip into this automatic thinking of "There's something wrong with me!"
Also a thing from the past, not sure what the cause is, but it's somehow related to shame or guilt.
There is nothing wrong with me, it's as CCF says, "You have an injury!"
That's what it is, not that you're mentally not the full quid.
I saw my mother this afternoon, and yesterday, which was also exhausting and triggering. She's one of the causes of my C-PTSD and she always tends to pull guilt-trips on me, emotionally manipulate me etc. in such a way that I feel I've done something wrong.
I now know it puts me in 'freeze' as I then have a brain freeze, I cannot come up with arguments or things to say that make sense. The way she treats me instantly numbs my brain. I become like a toddler again that has no say in things.
I so hate that feeling!
Anyway, happy with your info, if you feel like sharing more, please do!
It's great knowledge.
