[alcyone]

I miss love. I miss drinking at bon fires with strangers I called friends. I miss riding down the highway in the back seat of my best friends car. I miss walking in the rain just to get a picture of the flowers that fell from a tree in the storm. I miss sitting in my old beaten up car, finding my soul, in the rain tapping on the roof of that old car. I miss getting high with my crazy cousins and walking through the woods, and giving snails and a frog a toke. *I miss walking down the road and holding my soul mates hand. I miss the nights we went to watch the meteor showers, the stars were so bright that night; hues of green, yellow, white, red, and blue making lines across the sky. I miss dancing with my soul mate. I miss the sound of her beautiful deep voice when she was tired, and the way it got higher in her more excited state. I miss being afraid of revealing who i was to her, we were both so innocent. I miss believing in a fate, some beautiful place I would eventually find myself; happy, secure, and loved. I miss following the little signs the Universe would put in front of me, leading me down some garden path to my destination. I miss that one day at the river with my cousin, we were both a little not sober, and you ended up throwing a rock at me and it hit my shoulder. I laughed so hard, why did you do that? I miss the familiar eyes of my brother.


I mostly miss the days that I was living for something, or living for nothing in particular but filled with passion for life anyway. The days when we were just kids growing up. Those were the good days. It's funny how the best days that I can remember are these.


I'm so grateful for those memories and the people in them that helped me become who i am today. My soul mate, my cousins, my brothers, other family, and a few good friends.*I love you guys to the end