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Sure. The questions is how do you desire to find god? There is this tantric story about two brothers who find god. One through his love for god, the other through his hate. At the moment you are finding yours through fear and it does not feel good; so I understand why you do not desire to believe in it or the lore you associate with it.
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I am the flower, the tree, the vine. I am the path 
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