[Kalika]

"Welcome to Awakening! Enjoy it!"

These were the nicest words to receive. Life for me has done a 360. I'm new to spiritual terminology, in fact new to it period.

Onwards and upwards? I hope. I'm noticing things are a little different, and I'm not sure if it's because I have just come to realise I have shadow work to do.

Things are just different and I can't put a name to it. Though I immensely appreciated those five words above. I've since moved beyond what I will call my TF - or is that limerent object? Either way, I am past the intense feelings and obsession. I am now viewing them as a 'whole' (dark side included).

I am now looking at integrating my shadow. Again, this is all new to me so I have no idea where to start. All I know is that I have nothing but unconditional regard for TF. For opening me up to... feeling. For this first time, I can say, it is okay to sit with ANY feeling and let it be.

Now what? I'm so confused.