Hi Kundalini
I was being very kind to my former self when using the phrase 'Doubting Thomas'. I hated and loathed all organised religion, saw it as the shackles of reason. I remember watching the film 'Mission' and then researching it's authenticity. I felt such anger towards the established churches for what they had done.
I was more than doubting thomas I was a crusader against all religion, christianity in particular. I was wasting my talents and required a big kick up the backside--I got it!!!!
Peter