This is most challenging to GROW THROUGH ~!

I would suggest "A Course In Miracles" by Foundation for Inner Freedom

and "The Nag Hammadi Library edited by Glen Robinson"

Day to day hold to these as the SOLUTION, and it AWAKENS within YOU.

The PROBLEM ..... FEELS in YOU........ the SOLUTION is also WITHIN YOU~

Listen to MOOJI on you-tube and Eckhart Tolle , perhaps BRACO too ..... these will all aid.

Thich Nhat Hahn wrote a few GREAT works ! Mindfulness

Be PATIENT , PERSISTENT , CONSISTENT and LET GO the "wants" that weigh you down. Time in NATURE , meditate , pray , learn to COMMUNE with the Divine and be silent about this too! Many will try to stop you, they do not want you to heal, your not healing makes ego feel "more than" and it does not like feeling "less than" ......... You are WELL.