the house I'm living in at is always full of people all the time of all different kinds but yesterday I met this person and right when I saw her she seemed very familiar to me and we became introduced and the whole time i kept trying to pay attention to how i felt, a lot of 'buzzing vibrations' up and down my body like waves. But particularly my chest and throat would feel constricted and she wouldn't really look me in the eyes, she was friendly but i also felt like I was the only one in the place that could sense there was more going on underneath. the closer I was near to her, I don't really know how to explain it, but it felt like deep sorrow, like separation from a loved one but it ended grotesquely 'filled with ego and drama and despair.

so...yeah, even remembering as i type it out kicks me in the feels