Spiritual Forums - Ace of spades and death

So I did my tarot card. I got heaven n earth tarot. N I did a 4card one. The last 2 cards was where am I going and what needs to happen to get what I need. Where i was going was ace of spades. It said that 2 people start a new life together doing something incredible together it's a beautiful. Then what will take place to get what I need what the death card. I'm okay with death. I welcome it. I been shown a new new side with my 3rd eye and spirits and Angel's n demons and the almighty god and jesus christ. I learned alot but I wanted to know if the death card ment death was coming for me or if it just ment whatever. People try to pretty it up but it's okay by me. I'm ready wenever I'm at peace. I'm young but I've litterly been thru hell and back. I felt things no one ever should and I seen beauty. I just want peace.