Hi Sweetie!
I guess we can't talk
any more now that our site has burned to the ground too bad... well now I dream about 'her' sometimes she's halfway believable unlike you ever were lol well I would take you up on your olive branch if it hadn't turned into a carrot and stick schtick last time I tried it hurt really really badly to be so out on a limb only to be rejected and I don't really trust you after that and after everything else sad to say but speaking of 'her' another halfway believable thing they told me is that at a certain age we would meet again and we are coming close to that so I guess we will see But I don't know if she is any more believable than you ever were although I suppose it worked in other times and places anyway I do know I'm going to her town for a second time this fall despite the fact that traveling is such a chore last time I really liked it though I hope the charm hasn't worn off... |
more ganging up
on a me another 'intervention' why are people so unkind? this is never going to end =============================== you asked for help but i can't or maybe I won't. =============================== another name given oh so obliquely really had to work for it... probably shouldn't have cared... But I'm so tired of oblique why can't anyone ever just say what they mean? but I suppose I don't either been beat up too many times just for being honest and now I'm gunshy too. which is why I just shut up and won't share any time people are ganging up on me. anyway, I'm back where I started people (you girls) are just too mean and nothing can ever work out in a life like this. I barely feel able to continue. (tears) |
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As the shining radiance In carefree dalliance We neither seek response Nor are affected by looks askance We just impulsively share With one & all who choose to pair In an outpouring loving Unceasing *** |
Receiving in so many ways
The meeting coming round To meet yourself in those her’s While you cry and frown You receive in time you’ll see But first it’s all about ‘me’ A lesson in receiving given So you learn to always be Aware your more than you see |
let us get loud on Hi Sweetie!
and see where that leads us. does not mean being or doing anything, could mean something special. |
hi guys!
(shyly) thank you for posting! |
hi sweetie!
not much to say words not coming? for a while now. but I just wanted to say 'hi' |
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Hi
Holds so many meanings Comes with so many unspoken expectations Starts so many possibilities Launches so many interchanges Begins every relationship Yet... Ends with all when unreciprocated Hi Falling! :hug3: |
there is a song
'what about us' wherein a bunch of people basically complain about someone who was only trying to help because they felt hurt I always find such things ironic because the people making these kinds of complaints will never look at themselves and see just exactly what kind of pain they have caused to others who often have no voice and who have to just sit there taking whatever untold meanness mean minds can create while dieing inside little by little day by day. |
sweetie,
our time is done. I needed to know what to expect and all I got for an answer was 'you're not allowed to expect anything'. And I had so many other questions that I asked and all of them came back to 'no, you can't'. and when I wasn't being told 'no' I was being ridiculed. Or sometimes worse. So our time is done. |
besides
I'm tired of you always having someone kill me. |
besides
I'm tired of the way you treat me. Or should I say mistreat me? |
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so inspiring....thanks
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Hi Falling
I have to admire Your innovated ways To express your thoughts Yeah.. Do not suppress Your feelings Healthy outbursts Encouraging. :hug2: I am glad that you are ok and still around. :wink: |
Hi Sweetie, have a happy holidays!
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hi sweetie
bye sweetie |
thinking of you
wistfully... --------------------------------------- well I know this will fall on deaf ears but I suppose you really don't know. It is easy for you to sit there and call me a coward, and so many other ungracious names like you have for so many years now but the truth about cowardice as about so many other things is that inasmuch as I would love to just sit here quivering in fear and not doing much of anything not taking chances not waiting for another tree to fall not waiting for the next insult to be hurled not waiting for the next betrayal not waiting for someone new to find a novel way to hurt a me just kinda going away and not playing this stupid energizer bunny game the truth is I spend a lot of time doing gut-wrenching things taking chances that often make me fear for my own life and often leave me in a great deal of pain. I sometimes hate myself for that. And there is never any thanks in it, other than for someone to tell me I'm not doing enough Its not good enough I'm not good enough I need to improve and make it even better If I only I were a better person Then I could be loved. For which prodding I always go back and do something even worse to myself in the hopes it will somehow be different this time. But always the same results appear. Love is always sometime in the future... Attainment never comes. ------------------------------------------------------------- But I suppose I knew, coming in there wouldn't be anything here for a me. I was so sad the day I realized that. Girls would just be mean to a me For all my days. I just wish I hadn't believed it when they promised me it would somehow be different this time. Had remembered that promises to a me are never kept. But I suppose punishments won't take if I can avoid them. Sigh. --------------------------------------- Merry xmas. |
more with the
hurt him for his own good. I get so tired of eating that all the time. It seems like it is the only food you know how to make. If you will excuse me I'm going to go off and cry now. |
he did figure out
that what he can think to want can't really come to pass. It isn't fair to anyone really let alone you. in his saner moments, he is able to acknowledge that. no matter how he might think you've slighted him all these years, there are still some things that just can't come to be but at the same time he doesn't want to hit 'rewind, replay' to what went on before. sigh. |
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i'm not sure
I'm liking this recent trip I'm taking down memory lane. Last nights trip into the forest was vexing to say the least but I had forgotten exactly how awful my time with you really was so I guess it was for the best. I guess though I'm still silly should I repeat what I did before with the insane idea that the result could be different even though that never ever works? Or should I just cut and run. My head hurts. Sigh. |
Hi Sweetie!
(shyly) Merry Christmas. |
Hi sweetie!
all this talk of death should have me shaking in my boots I suppose but I don't really care if I'm dead I'm dead good riddance! (probably) Not that I sometimes wouldn't like it to be just that way although... well anyways after browsing some posts herein I read the unlucky chapter in corinthians again and some other stuff and thought I might like to try my hand at it you know you not wanting me and all I have to have SOMETHING to do with my time lol But it seems very hard even not to be irritable so I got discouraged almost immediately I may try just a little bit although even though they say it is a good thing I really don't know good from bad any more it is all kidna hzy But I do know the rules are the rules and I try to follow them now. something about a yellow brick road? by the way the only reason I'm so quiet nowadays is it came across my desk you think me quite the nag. So I thought I would give you the gift of being quiet towards you. |
Happy holiday! Falling
I wish you a much happier 2020 Filled with laughters and love |
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Hi Z! I'm not really upset about anything right now, things are kinda leveling out a bit I guess lol! For the moment at least I seem to have figured out not to deliberately touch the electric fence :smile: hope you are having a happy holidays! |
feeling despondent
got struck in the heart by someone who never cared I was so wrong sigh. meanwhile trying to avoid this new person who promised to bring me more schizophrenic nightmares. maybe I'll go cry. |
well
not being too fanciful right now didn't expect more than was there well anyway I don't talk about certain things any more but regardless I'm having a good time with the things that I've loved to do since I met you meanwhile all this talk of celebrities has me bored one I was with in another time but she was about a bit this one as another person than as her celebrity self I just figure she is like a memory which I suppose is ok since everyone says she is a floozy anyway? Not that I wouild know... another came literally marching into my dreams when my last flame 'died' for a me and stuck around a while and the third I've had no contact with just a name on a big silver screen. I think there are Too many things I've gotten too lame about with fanciful thoughts but it doesn't really matter any more. and then there is you I suppose I should disbelieve this 'second coming' as just another farce but I'm having fun not taking it too seriously regardless. Trips to the forest aside... |
Are these meant to be poems? :confused:
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I've had enough
I guess endless meanness and meanwhile I have no clue how a relationship could work what with you and the endless meanness all the time I mean I don't think it could. Not with you Not with anyone. Because everyone cares only for themselves and never for me. Guess I am going on alone. again. |
heya sweetie
I was wondering, if you are so mean to a me because I am so mean to a you? But then I I had to be fair you started it... I can't take the blame for everything here. still I wonder if I shouldn't get off this merry go round. On the other hand maybe I was right the first time and you just like being mean. |
hi sweetie
decided not to take you up on your latest hilarity well I guess now all I get to do is I have to wait for the dreaded words... 'if only you had waited a little longer it would have been all right. but you didn't, and now it is too late' |
in tears at the end
then sobbing hysterically in a car I knew I would miss that one I didn't know how much. |
being told
that I have to improve or be a better person in any way is just irksome. Because if I do that work you will take the credit for talking me into it and leave me still out in the cold. Personally it makes more sense to self destruct than take that from someone who is supposed to care about what I might feel. |
ok
so maybe that wasn't fair Sometimes I just get tired of being told what an awful person I am and I should change for your sake not for mine I guess though I should learn my lesson that such from you isn't a bad thing least of which because it means we cannot be together but more because having things my own way has just sucked anyway |
Sorry if it's not my place to jump in, but I don't sense you are awful, quite the opposite actually.
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Yes. Reading your stuff is nice and I am angry about toe knees post at the top of this page, I’ve been considering asking a mod to delete it but it,s not my place. It was baseless negativity.
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thanks guys, it is nice to have some positive feedback :hug2:
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