I had a walk-in soul and now she is gone. I am lost and need help!
Hi everyone!
I need help, here's my story, and thanks for reading!!!! :hug: I had serious trouble in my life 8 years ago, I was at my wits end with my life, and I had run across the notion of a soul exchange. So I found a soul practitioner who performed a soul exchange for me. I didn't realize this until just recently, but my walk-in had been present with me for the last 8 years. She took the driver seat, and I took the back seat, but I wasn't aware of her presence until now. She is an Angel from the 7th dimension. She carried me through many tough life experiences that I personally may not have survived, including an abusive marriage. My walk-in soul was recently asked by the Lord (literally) to be a spokesperson for the Lord and to remove demons from people who are suffering. I am a channel/medium, and this was the request that was made of her/me. However, my original soul did not want this path and therefore, asked to come back, live life out, and to have freedom of choice. So the soul exchange was made again, and now I am back fully within my body without the Angel soul helping me anymore. And I am LOST. She was SO strong, SO confident and SO incredibly amazing, full of light, love and hope, and I don't feel half as strong of a person as she was, nor as enlightened. I wish she could come back, but I chose a different path, and she cannot. She can help me here and there, but she cannot come back into my body. Supposedly, I am an earth Angel myself, as I've been told by my Angels and Spirit Guides. But now I don't know how to be strong and confident like my walk-in was. And I am still dealing with an abusive marriage, but now all on my own. Once I returned fully into my body, I felt like a pretty different person. It 's the old yet new me, if that makes any sense. So I am rediscovering who I am all over again. And my husband? He has improved VASTLY because I've put down my foot and almost left him, but a large part of me wants to leave him again, despite major improvements and changes I see in the abusive behaviors. He is also very loving, sweet, generous and kind to me as well. My real question is-- how do I get back to who I am/was AFTER having had a walk-in soul for the last 8 years? How do I rediscover myself? How do I be as strong, as enlightened, and as amazing as my walk-in was? |
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I can't answer for you, but can provide a perspective. You think the walk-in isn't you, and you are mistaken. The walk in is you and always will be. You are most likely a fractal of her and she is trying to develop you because any gains that you make will be gains made for her. https://cdn.gamer-network.net/2018/u...reenshot-1.jpg In this mathematical concept, of a rpg game, you play as 3 characters that makeup who you are in this reality. Each one is at a different level and any one can become the driver for the group. Any gains made by any character will raise your overall stats in the game. As a spiritual practitioner, it is recommended to think of yourself as a collective, all the while remembering that some people purposely choose to ignore this part of themselves because they choose to experience a reality where only a singular ego exists. It is also important to remember that some player have thousands, if not more, of egos, otherwise known as characters, that represents who they are within a lifetime. |
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Thank you!!! So are you talking about soul aspects? I've heard of there being various soul aspects within one oversoul, which can live in different dimensions, but which are all a part of the one SOUL. Sounds like that may be what you're talking about. If not, regardless, it's comforting to hear!!! Thanks so much. |
I just read this again... only now realized I have to respond in order to try to help you. I can’t do it for you. But I can suggest it to you.
Kindness is a must have. Be gentle to yourself and others. Then, right then, process EVERYTHING that had happened. Survive with kindness. And strengthen by processing... this path was yours already. You have walked it. I know there is more to offer from my side, but God knows where and when it belongs. Kindness, Cosmic Wonder Gentleness and much love to you my dear. Survive gently. |
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Thank you. :hug: :hug: Kindness has been my middle name, all of my life. However, being SO nice, I have allowed myself to be abused by multiple abusers. I believe in kindness, yes.... but now I am in a protective mode. I cannot be SO nice anymore. I've been far too open to too many toxic types of people, who then have trampled on me, used and abused me. No more. So while I believe in acts of kindness and in kindness overall, I also believe in self protection. That's where I need to be right now. Self protective and with strong boundaries. I need to be kind most of all to myself. Hugs and blessings to you. :hug: |
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Moderate it, don’t be too compulsive indeed! |
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Yes........ :hug: |
I’m glad I brought this up again. Thank you asearcher
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Thank you for your input and suggestions. :hug: Right now, it is very difficult to find my own way. I am at sea in a tiny boat being tossed around by the stormy waves, with the surrounding fog clouding my vision. I am trying to be strong, and perhaps that is the point - to make me much stronger. I gave up on the notion of couples therapy with my husband because I don't care to try and salvage the relationship. I just want out. He has tamed some of his behaviors lately, including the yelling, so it's been more tolerable at least, though there is still abuse present. And no, he has not hit me or anything like that. |
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Pretend you are her, you kind of are. She showed you a new way to think, a new way to be, you have that and always will. She's not gone, in a sense. But truly, you have nothing less than what you had when she was braided. Fully embody what you learned. |
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