@ Michael ~ An oxymoron of sorts. Taking a cue from what Jesus is said to have said at different times:

My Father and I are one &

Father, why have you abandoned me

signalling that there is both oneness as well as separation even if subtle; oscillation.

Bless you Bikram for your thoughtful words of comfort and joy, I understand this feeling well, but there is still a part of me that wants to be saved from all harm by a higher power rushing to my aid when i am in distress.

regards michael.