Spiritual Forums - Need a Medium Please

I really need to see a medium, a real one. How to find a real one? I really can't afford to get scammed financially, mentally or emotionally. My Twin Flame died tragically in Jan. We knew each other for years. We only figured out we were TF's in Nov. and Jan. he was taken from me. I know without a doubt he would communicate. Just need to find someone. I desperately need this. He should have been with me at the time of his death. If I would not have decided the last minute not to go out that night, he would still be here with me. So many things left open. I need closure. I can't move on and grieve without answers. Please someone help me.