sweetie,
our time is done. I needed to know what to expect and all I got for an answer was 'you're not allowed to expect anything'. And I had so many other questions that I asked and all of them came back to 'no, you can't'. and when I wasn't being told 'no' I was being ridiculed. Or sometimes worse. So our time is done. |
besides
I'm tired of you always having someone kill me. |
besides
I'm tired of the way you treat me. Or should I say mistreat me? |
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so inspiring....thanks
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Couldn't agree more :icon_thumleft: |
Hi Falling
I have to admire Your innovated ways To express your thoughts Yeah.. Do not suppress Your feelings Healthy outbursts Encouraging. :hug2: I am glad that you are ok and still around. :wink: |
Hi Sweetie, have a happy holidays!
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hi sweetie
bye sweetie |
thinking of you
wistfully... --------------------------------------- well I know this will fall on deaf ears but I suppose you really don't know. It is easy for you to sit there and call me a coward, and so many other ungracious names like you have for so many years now but the truth about cowardice as about so many other things is that inasmuch as I would love to just sit here quivering in fear and not doing much of anything not taking chances not waiting for another tree to fall not waiting for the next insult to be hurled not waiting for the next betrayal not waiting for someone new to find a novel way to hurt a me just kinda going away and not playing this stupid energizer bunny game the truth is I spend a lot of time doing gut-wrenching things taking chances that often make me fear for my own life and often leave me in a great deal of pain. I sometimes hate myself for that. And there is never any thanks in it, other than for someone to tell me I'm not doing enough Its not good enough I'm not good enough I need to improve and make it even better If I only I were a better person Then I could be loved. For which prodding I always go back and do something even worse to myself in the hopes it will somehow be different this time. But always the same results appear. Love is always sometime in the future... Attainment never comes. ------------------------------------------------------------- But I suppose I knew, coming in there wouldn't be anything here for a me. I was so sad the day I realized that. Girls would just be mean to a me For all my days. I just wish I hadn't believed it when they promised me it would somehow be different this time. Had remembered that promises to a me are never kept. But I suppose punishments won't take if I can avoid them. Sigh. --------------------------------------- Merry xmas. |
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