Hi FallingLeaves. I finally got moved and settled. I hope you are doing ok. :hug2:
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hi jazzy! nice to hear from you. Glad you got settled in. Do you like it better? So far i mean lol!
I'm a little outa sorts, just kinda waiting around for the other shoe to drop right now... lol... still at least trying to be a little nicer about the whole thing than I have been in times past, and maybe have somewhat of a sense of humour about my situation! |
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Yes, I really do. I think this area was part of a divine intervention that I needed to save my sanity. lol 10 years ago my Dr. told me that I would have to make major changes to reduce my stress as it was making me ill. It took me a while to make that change, as I'm stubborn, lol. But after a week into it, I'm already feeling the benefits. Quote:
I'm sorry you are out of sorts. That's never a good feeling. :icon_frown: At least you are trying your best to handle things. I don't know where I would be without a sense of humor...I shudder at the thought...lol Anyways, if it's not too bold of me to say, I am very proud of you for pushing through this difficult journey. I must admit I'm proud of myself too for hanging in there. We rock! :hug2: Have a great weekend!! :hug: |
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Sorry for the delay in responding, whenever I read this the other day I was so out of things I couldn't even really let it touch me. I didn't know how to respond, or if I should.... in my own life I've been having to learn the hard lesson of just sitting still and dealing with what is thrown at me head-on... it having been established that if I try to go somewhere else, that I'm not, simply in hopes of making things better... things will instead get worse. Sigh. Quote:
thank you I really appreciate it. One of the hardest things, is having to do all the difficult stuff I have to do, and noone ever cares.... :hug2: :hug2: |
Thank you!
Please don't apologize for the delayed response thing, I totally understand. The lesson you learned of dealing what is thrown at you head-on - that sounds like something some people never grasp. So I think that you acknowledging it, and "sitting still" through it, is really smart and the best thing. :hug2: |
might be the best thing i could do but man is it difficult for someone like me to do it lol! God had a real fight on his hands sigh..... as I had seemingly endless of ideas what I'd like to be doing instead :hug2:
btw i am glad you came and said hi when you got settled in. Well it is a holiday next week. You gonna do anything? |
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Next week I'm drywalling, painting, and organizing some more stuff. If I'm not too tired I was going to attend a fundraiser for homeless dogs and cats. Probably followed by pizza or Chinese food. lol Normally I would go to fireworks displays, but where I live now is so wildlife rich that fireworks are discouraged. It can cause babies and mothers to be separated, or miscarriages or heart attacks. I didn't realize how serious it was for animals until I was educated by a sanctuary. Sorry for rambling lol. What are your plans for the holiday?? |
oh my! diy!
my dad was like all over that while I was growing up. Between house remodels and puttering around on the farm there was always something to do.... my favorite was cutting thistles down with machetes, so they wouldn't pollinate lol... As an adult I don't much admire diy though.... i didn't realize fireworks had such a bad effect on wildlife, that is kinda sad I guess. So many of the things we do are just kinda off I guess in terms of the natural world, it is almost like we set out to defy reality with the way we want to do things... i never had much use for fireworks anyway though... one of the places I lived they would set them off in a nearby park and there would be a lot of smoke and noise but other than it being a novelty I didn't much care... well now im sorry for rambling lol! Anyway I don't have any plans. I never do anything on this holiday except take time off from work.... |
Yes, I've been learning something new every day, this is the first time I've had the chance to do a variety of diy's.
Sounds like you have lots of nice memories with your Dad and cutting thistles. I'm glad you will have some time off work. :smile: |
i've been thinking
lately how awful i actually am... it seems never ending... ------------------------------------------------------------------ but life has been awful to me too in some ways... ------------------------------------------------------------------ like tonite, I was simply asked to wait. That was very difficult. Not because I didn't want to wait or couldn't wait, actually i found the prospect nice. But as with everything else the haunting echoes of how I was supposed to respond to such situations couldn't be avoided and i was left with the feeling that if i didn't protest the way someone is supposed to protest to be properly social when asked to wait I was just gonna be punished and meanwhile i get from god that if i get on my high horse about how contrarily to what everyone believes how good it is to wait and I'm such a good person for putting up with it and so i can feel good about myself for that I was also just gonna be punished... so i just sat there in the half world fascinated by the fact i was asked to wait because in some ways it is so very beautiful not to be running around chasing after shiny objects to just be sitting there 'not'. but waiting also for the other shoe to drop because no response I could make other than to do what people say to do 'protest because i wasn't being treated properly' was gonna keep me from getting punished that is the way it always was before anyway ------------------------------------------------------- I waited anyway because I discovered recently that running around trying to avoid pain can be even more painful than just putting up with what is already meted out to me. ------------------------------------------------------- I can never catch a break... sigh... |
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