hi jazzy =
thank you about the name. I was going for something calm and restful as opposed to something bristling with activity and that is what I decided on... |
hide and seek. hm.
--------------------------------------- at some point he gave in and understood 'my credibility rating is a little low' and decided there was no real reason to say everything that crossed his mind any more... they wouldn't buy it anyway lol -------------------------------------------- but he has been moving furniture around for many years anyway even though he's had to do it alone ---------------------------------------- so later he gave in on another topic accepting that he should not expect to have things just because he wants them and that is so peachy keen now! many of the things he wanted weren't worth having as it turns out and if he'd had to keep grasping at them it would have been more just more rat race only in the spiritual world but even for those things that are desirable by accepting it isn't always right to have what one wants he was able to give in on many other points as well... and from that he's got an incredible view of just how stupid he's been across his lifetimes and he also earned a lot of other stuff as well that you just never see when you are lost in the web of endlessly trying to obtain things. that one change had a lot of ripple. ---------------------------------------- there is a lot of other stuff that got moved around as well... |
not that anything
could ever work between us lol ------------------------------------------------- truth be told i kinda don't mind any more when people think me silly in some ways it can be a relief although it can also be disconcerting as i used to think with all my heart I had to be considered to be serious or else blah blah blah... now i still act serious a lot of times but my expectations for the results aren't too high any more lol and if my seriousness gets ignored i try not to be too upset... honestly sometimes I wish I could make myself entirely stop... ------------------------------------------------- sometimes i've been wondering if it wouldn't be nice to let all that go - and just be a ditzy female? yeah and i'm going to try to be a ditzy female by being serious in pursuit of that endeavor lol another one of those things that ends as soon as it begins... so that is another one of those things I don't guess I'll ever get to taste I guess... way too stuck in pretending to be serious to ever let it go I suppose lol -------------------------------------------------- well there has been a lot of talk about how i've always liked to throw fits as of late... sigh... i guess there is no point saying anything more on that topic... you wouldn't believe me anyway. -------------------------------------------------------------- but i do get mad at my computer! It is way too slow! |
when i was young
i knew how bad this was gonna be and I just wanted to die and avoid the whole thing later about the time i met you i had finally found some space and i was trying to heal but you didn't let me and after that it got bad again and i only wanted to be rescued from a new horror now i'm like.. all that was like just running away trying to seek death... i think now even the way i was going about healing well it would just have been another horror if you would have let me do it so once i thought im thankful that you didn't. i don't know what the future holds but i'm not unhappy with life as it is. -------------------------------------------------------- at this point i'm no longer seeking death... but nor am I grasping at a perfect life. -------------------------------------------------------- i think maybe, somehow those two statements are saying exactly the same thing. -------------------------------------------------------- well i'll try to shut up now lol.... |
Why did the cowboy adopt a wiener dog?
Because he wanted to get a long little doggy. :icon_neutral: Sorry.... |
hehehehe that was funny...
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well
he thinks that even though even on the world stage often person A wants to hurt person B and person B definitely gets indignant about how hurt they are when this is allowed to happen so there is a lot of making things steadily more controlled... so that each side can for a time lord it over the other and then the tables turn... none of this matters though because in my view god was serious when he said this place was constructed in such a way that it would confound even what the wise think appropriate --------------------------------------------- there are other scriptures that basically say the fact of all such activites are in line with the plan of god simply because it pleased him to make it that way and personally I have seen enough to feel like such things always work out for the best for all parties anyway regardless of what the people want to say about whatever they think is happening today ----------------------------------------------------------- Does that mean it is necessarily somehow ideal or even a good idea to continue on the way we've been going? personally i don't think so but I feel like you are not going to get person A to quit hurting person B by having person B try to hurt person A back the way our wisdom says is so good. fights breed more fights... but this is only desirable for you if you are one of the ones who loves the thrill of the fight ----------------------------------------------- but that is part of the point without this mess being exactly what it is those of us who dislike fighting might get our way and force those who love it to give it up so instead we are forced to fight back instead of just doing what god has told his people to do all along and just trust in the ways of god ----------------------------------------------------- and there is a lot more stuff we all think of as 'wise' that we would have each other do but it seems like god might be saying this idea that we should make others be who we want them to be just isn't worth anything in the end... and this is one of my own things I've been desperately trying to learn that maybe all the things i just instinctively do to try to tell others who to be just to make myself feel better are just more silliness and not something desirable to god |
it is true
the main reason for shutting up is to protect myself from all sorts of shenanigans that other people undertake if I simply say a word. but at the same time i now kinda see other reasons to like it. ------------------------------------------- meanwhile I've learned that I can't always protect myself anyway... which is a whole other subject, --------------------------------------------------- worlds of possibilities opened up that I first realized that and simply began to understand that i'm gonna hurt sometimes and i can;t stop that and that means it is ridiculous to build my life around trying. --------------------------------------------------------------- so now i talk sometimes but i hold my tongue others... which probably wouldn't be possible for a me if I hadn't had such strict training in what it means to simply not emote... |
well sweetie
so many times I've heard empty words when i first did i was mad because this is always the way it is now i sorta understand about empty words sweet nothings and even in small ways it is a bit of a comfort just to hear something really anything lol im not sure right now what I think about it beyond that i know once i wanted stuff now im not so sure i do but at the same time it isn't quite comfortable to be living this way... |
one of the things
that crossed his mind one day in the past was this whole idea that there must be one and only one true place or thing corresponding to any given story even in science or in history is just absurd. Everyone knows that everyone else likes to copy off each other so much so there are laws regulating who is allowed to profit from copies of things and who isn't and in fact there seems to be a rich understory to copying that one could even make a science out of if one dared study it longer than to note that people like to do it and shouldn't. this seems to me like a major part of reality that goes underconsidered. Ever heard of fractal images? Anyway as an example on some thread somewhere there is discussion of the tower of babel. two ideas are posited about what it was and perhaps where it was and the nature of the world says one must choose one or the other; one can't have both. But what if one is an echo of the other? And thus both are different renderings of the same thing in the same way that two artists might paint the same scene differently? wouldn't that make both of them valid renditions of the same thing? |
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