Kiran
09-01-2011, 07:15 PM
I need to lose attachment with the great love of my life and I don't know how to do it...
We live in different countries (me in Austria and he in Spain), and I fell in love with him during a study trip... at first sight, there was a huge attraction, we were like magnets. I went for a walk to the Alhambra with him at three in the morning, I trusted him blindly. We talked our hearts out in the gardens. I accompanied him home to have tea, and we ended up in bed... it was pure magic, two souls completely merged while outside a new day was breaking.
The following day I experienced what people who know about soulmates and twin flames call "the heart pull" - a feeling like my heart was being torn out of my chest. But it was a sweet pain, I WANTED to give him my heart, my soul, my everything.
I had to return to Austria, but we kept in contact over the phone (that phone bill!) and I returned to Granada during my winter holidays. We were madly in love.
Then I started studying, and I got seduced by a boy at university. My love accepted it with no whimper, and I came to think "how much can he love me if he doesn't even mind that I cheat?" Today I know that it was the biggest sign of his love, to let me have freedom and make my experiences.
In the end we broke up over a stupidity - I yelled at him and told him to get lost from my life. And he took me by the word. Any message I sent him afterwards was in vain, he doesn't want any more contact with me. From what I know from his Facebook profile he is taken and working as a DJ nowadays. My friendship proposal he first accepted, then deleted. The second proposal he didn't respond at all.
:icon_frown: :icon_frown: :icon_frown:
He told me from the very start of our relationship: "You won't find another one like me." I know I won't. But I also know that I have to stop feeling guilty about this loss, free myself from this constant pain of having lost the love of my life... I NEED MY HEART BACK!!!
And I want freedom to maybe start a new relationship, which most likely would never reach the heights of this one, but still... I long for love and I know that with the love of my life, there are too many things that stand between us now.
:crybaby2:
WHAT TO DO TO GET MY HEART BACK?
We live in different countries (me in Austria and he in Spain), and I fell in love with him during a study trip... at first sight, there was a huge attraction, we were like magnets. I went for a walk to the Alhambra with him at three in the morning, I trusted him blindly. We talked our hearts out in the gardens. I accompanied him home to have tea, and we ended up in bed... it was pure magic, two souls completely merged while outside a new day was breaking.
The following day I experienced what people who know about soulmates and twin flames call "the heart pull" - a feeling like my heart was being torn out of my chest. But it was a sweet pain, I WANTED to give him my heart, my soul, my everything.
I had to return to Austria, but we kept in contact over the phone (that phone bill!) and I returned to Granada during my winter holidays. We were madly in love.
Then I started studying, and I got seduced by a boy at university. My love accepted it with no whimper, and I came to think "how much can he love me if he doesn't even mind that I cheat?" Today I know that it was the biggest sign of his love, to let me have freedom and make my experiences.
In the end we broke up over a stupidity - I yelled at him and told him to get lost from my life. And he took me by the word. Any message I sent him afterwards was in vain, he doesn't want any more contact with me. From what I know from his Facebook profile he is taken and working as a DJ nowadays. My friendship proposal he first accepted, then deleted. The second proposal he didn't respond at all.
:icon_frown: :icon_frown: :icon_frown:
He told me from the very start of our relationship: "You won't find another one like me." I know I won't. But I also know that I have to stop feeling guilty about this loss, free myself from this constant pain of having lost the love of my life... I NEED MY HEART BACK!!!
And I want freedom to maybe start a new relationship, which most likely would never reach the heights of this one, but still... I long for love and I know that with the love of my life, there are too many things that stand between us now.
:crybaby2:
WHAT TO DO TO GET MY HEART BACK?