Empyrean
21-06-2014, 11:28 AM
Today I'm in a comfurtable space.
Was in all kinds of turmoil this morning, having woken once again from dreams of my ex being intimate with her new partner. So many details and relations and things I took to heart being turned upside down...
So I opened my curtains, noticed that it was sunny. I smiled so deep that I wasn't really there, and that this is less an illusion than my dream. I looked out and felt that 'here I am now' though, so those feelings are not for me.
I had to open my heart to look at the people living their ordinary lives, and even with depression a part of my mind's design - managed to forgive it all and just take the happiness. I breathed and felt relaxed, felt a hug from the air and the presense around me. Familliar buildings, familliar birds. All here for me, all consistent and lovely.
Enjoy your day. x
Was in all kinds of turmoil this morning, having woken once again from dreams of my ex being intimate with her new partner. So many details and relations and things I took to heart being turned upside down...
So I opened my curtains, noticed that it was sunny. I smiled so deep that I wasn't really there, and that this is less an illusion than my dream. I looked out and felt that 'here I am now' though, so those feelings are not for me.
I had to open my heart to look at the people living their ordinary lives, and even with depression a part of my mind's design - managed to forgive it all and just take the happiness. I breathed and felt relaxed, felt a hug from the air and the presense around me. Familliar buildings, familliar birds. All here for me, all consistent and lovely.
Enjoy your day. x