Would I ever have children...?

[spirit72]

I have an angel board, I don't know how else to describe it... it's like you throw the dice on a yes/no question, count the number of dots and move your angel figure to the space...

I asked the board would I have children...?

It said yes,
I asked how long..? it said within five years...
I asked it the same question 8 times and got the same answer this was over the space of a week... then I put the board away and waited...

Well this is the fifth year, and still no baby...
I lost three babies when I was younger, I had the names picked out for my children since I was 8 years old... and at 14 I was told I would never have children due to a medical problem! I was crushed for years... Then I kept getting the feeling I would be an older Mum... so it kind of tied into how I felt about things...

So I am wondering if this board is a load of nonsense, as I am still childless...
And fast getting to the age I really would be horrified to have them, as I would be in my 60's when they were in there twenties... It was my last hope really, and one that seems to have also been unfounded...

Makes me feel like these boards should be band, for they give out a lot of false hope and promises that don't materialise....:icon_frown:

[Kaere]

I'm sorry for your losses and the feelings of sorrow you have at the moment. I understand the feeling of disappointment that comes with divination at times.

There are a couple of different things that spring to my mind - first is that our lives are always in motion. What might have been so five years ago may not have been the same four years ago. The answers we get are never set in stone.

Secondly, biology is not exclusive to bringing a family together. Have you considered adopting or fostering? You don't need to answer of course - I just want to put an alternative thought out there.

[konrard]

What is it that drives your desire to have children? :)
children really are wonderful, and the greatest part about them is that they don't have to be "ours" in order to enjoy their presence

your inability to bear children is for a reason, so have faith in that reason and dont focus on what you don't have :) because you have a lot more than you know!

peace and love <3

[Natalia]

Im so sorry :(
Have you ever gone to see a fertility specialist?

[Ravens_Light]

Hello sweet Spirit...

Firstly I'm so sorry for your loss.... It breaks my heart you have experienced this...((((HUGS))))))

Well, I'm not sure about the angel board, but I do believe like my cards, it is a tool from which to bring forth our intuition... So, tho' I can't say for sure, it seems a positive sign that what you are bringing forth is so consistent..

One of my favorite is sayings (from the song of the same name) is What a Difference a Day Makes...

And that is because I have seen many times how when all seems lost or hopeless or there seems absolutely no reason to believe otherwise, things can change on a dime!

You can meet, fall in love & get preggo in no time if it's mean to be! Or, if you are of the mind to see if you might have a baby on your own, it could happen... And, if you are meant to have a baby, regardless of what your past experience has been, you will have it.

I wouldn't worry so much about your age.. I had my 1st at 40 & my 2nd at 42... Age is more a state of mind, at least that is MHO...

It may seem very very simple..but you might try going on therapeutic doses of 80% Sylimarin Milk Thistle... This cleanses and rebuilds the liver.. And I believe it had everything to do with me being able to conceive & deliver 2 healthy babies at my age..

The reason is because if your liver is toxic (& I would bet it is since I guarantee the vast majority of people's livers are toxic), then it thows off the balance of enzymes & hormones... And as I'm sure you know pregancy has is greatly affected by these chemicals in the body.. Your liver is your 'chemical factory' and if it gets clogged up, everything can go haywire...

If I had not experienced what I call a miraculous cure of debilitating PMS (symptoms of EVERY KIND) in just 4-6 months of this herb, I don't know if I'd believe it myself -- even with my very open mind lol!

Anyway.. For what it's worth dear friend....

Love & Hugs... As always, do PM if you'd like...♥ ♥

[iolite]

I have an angel board, I don't know how else to describe it... it's like you throw the dice on a yes/no question, count the number of dots and move your angel figure to the space...

I asked the board would I have children...?

It said yes,
I asked how long..? it said within five years...
I asked it the same question 8 times and got the same answer this was over the space of a week... then I put the board away and waited...

Well this is the fifth year, and still no baby...
I lost three babies when I was younger, I had the names picked out for my children since I was 8 years old... and at 14 I was told I would never have children due to a medical problem! I was crushed for years... Then I kept getting the feeling I would be an older Mum... so it kind of tied into how I felt about things...

So I am wondering if this board is a load of nonsense, as I am still childless...
And fast getting to the age I really would be horrified to have them, as I would be in my 60's when they were in there twenties... It was my last hope really, and one that seems to have also been unfounded...

Makes me feel like these boards should be band, for they give out a lot of false hope and promises that don't materialise....:icon_frown:

Spirit...

The medical community tells you things like that because THEY don't know any better. I don't know what medical condition you have, per se, but if you have endometreosis or uterine fibroids -- that can be reversed by iodine consumption (100mg daily lugols or iodoral) and detoxing the bromide out of those tissues.

Dr. Christopher, the famous late herbalist was able to help many the medical community gave up on. He called them the incureables. The website: http://www.herballegacy.com has a lot of his cases and formulas.

But, setting that aside, you can have children through adoption too. They become your own even if you didn't give birth to them. Have you thought of adoption?

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[earthwanderess]

Look into Mayan Abdominal Massage too.

[Topaz]

Spirit 72 I was also told at the age of 13 that I could never have children . For some strange reason I can remember sitting in a childcare development course and a voice in my head said I am going to adopt .
For years I have struggled felt out raged and felt not normal . My relationships have suffered because of this .
Hence I am on my own but I have learned to love myself and take great comfort in my spiritual connection and growth.
Psychics have always said that I will always have twins and believe it or not they always pick up that I have a loving partner in my life .

Sorry i don't where I am going with this . But as you say it's a new day and a new way :) Anything is possible xx

[Enya]

When you invest too many 'definatives' in an outside source of information, you give that source power over your future choices and personal possibilities. Take back your power.
Cut the emotional cord to the angel board, Spirit72.
Cut the emotional cord to who/whatever told you about the children, Topaz.

Both of you, let it go and be at peace within yourselves and with who you are, now. Move on from this point, with no expectations or fears for what may or may not come. Be open to whatever may happen and carry nothing but anticipation that miracles do happen, that nothing is set in stone and that our minds cannot conceive every amazing possibility.

Define yourself and your life the way you chose to, not by the dictat of something else. :hug2:

[Topaz]

Unfortunately I had the menopause when I was 14 years old . Not that I had any symptoms my periods just stopped after one year of starting. Post Ovarian failure is it's official name called in the medical world .

But as you say life is good and I do celebrate being me :) xx

[suchi]

Dear I can understand ur feeling,but please try to understand the human psychology of satisfaction.Our tongue always tends to figure out the odd particle of food stuck in our teeth.It never tends to move towards the other beautiful even teeth.We always cry n focus on what we do not have,n never thank God for what he has offered us.

[Sarian]

Spirit...I always wanted children someday...I imagined and even felt sure I would have three children...a boy, then a girl, then another boy...but wasn't sure if I felt that was what I would have because I have 2 brothers, an older one and a younger one...and I'm the girl in the middle. I got married. The husband seemed less than interested as he had two from a previous marriage. Finally he said okay. I tried for many years...nothing. Went to a doctor, and tests were done that were quite invasive and I saw what I looked like inside. I had no idea they were even fallopian tubes. I said what's that? I could have cried. He did a laparoscopy to try and see if anything could be done...he said it was pretty doubtful I'd have children as i was scarred up pretty badly inside.

I was devastated. My best friend is catholic and told me that this healing priest was coming. Well, I was desparate that I would try anything. i have heard much about him. I believe his name was Matthew Swizdor? I am not sure, I don't think he's alive anymore. Anyway, I went to him and people he laid hands on were falling backwards like you'd hear about at pentecostal revivals or something... He came to me and I was afraid, but then I felt this warmth in my forehead and saw it travel down into my chest...it was an orange and white swirl. It got very, very warm, hot really. I then got scared and pulled back. I think because i was afraid I'd fall like others and I thought it was fake when I saw it happening to others...or that they got 'caught up in the excitement' or something... Well, that very same month I ended up getting pregnant. My doctor was shocked. Two years later I tried again, nothing. My doctor said he didn't know how I had the first one, but sent me to a fertility expert. He was claimed to be one of the best in my country. He performed a laparectomy on me and it took 4 hours. he said he did not know how I even had my son as I was so full of adhesions and lesions that it took him that long just to pull the strands apart...he said they were liked overcooked spaghetti inside me. I asked if I would be okay and be able to get pregnant again. He said he really didn't think so, but didn't like to say no, but he said if lucky, maybe in a year or so... I was sad...left and then I just asked God to please let me have my daughter...I was not religious, but I am spiritual. I got pregnant that month..it was a hard pregnancy, but I had my daughter and she was born on my birthday. :-)

Call me greedy I guess, but I was supposed to have my 3rd child, my son...I asked God when he would come...I got pregnant or so I thought but about a month later, I was out and about and I experienced severe cramping and had a miscarriage..at least I felt sure it was, who knows...I stood in the shower and I cried...I told God to please let me get pregnant and have my son or take away this urge I have to get pregnant again... I got pregnant again that month...so I have all three of my children, a boy, a girl, another boy...last son was born on my older brother's birthday. Anyway.... I think about it often and why I had my kids and so many other woman can't have any...sometimes I really believe my kids are soulmates and we've all traveled together because here I have 3 kids and we get along fabulously...I can't imagine life without them...the father of them...well, I don't know why I ever married him, but if I didn't...I wouldn't have the wonderful ones I have now...

I don't want to give you false hope, but never think never...because you never know...and if it doesn't happen, and maybe this is cliche...there are children in desparate need of a family....pray either way...that you find the rest of your family...whether they come biologically or another woman had to birth them for you, you just have to reach them...or they you! Good luck and many blessings to you.

[GoddessLove]

Umm, this may sound really weird. But yesterday there was a post- a mini reading game- and I commented that I saw a woman sitting at a beach writing in her journal and she was very stressed out bc she wanted kids. Well, there was an angel behind her and maybe 3 kids running to the right side of her--but she could not see them. I took that as a sign that she would get her wish or that her wish was there but she could not see it...maybe that came to me on account of op. I erased my post bc it was so irrelevant to the game despite the fact that I felt the need to share it...But now I see why the vision was so strong! I am NO psychic, so don't hold me to it, but I just know that you are heard!!! That post was for you op...look around for the answers.

[tragblack]

Dear I can understand ur feeling,but please try to understand the human psychology of satisfaction.Our tongue always tends to figure out the odd particle of food stuck in our teeth.It never tends to move towards the other beautiful even teeth.We always cry n focus on what we do not have,n never thank God for what he has offered us.

It is odd that I come across this little tidbit: I have been picking at a spot in my tooth for hours with my tongue. My tongue is sore and I have been stressing about my teeth. I guess this means: stop.

[LadyVirgoxoxo]

Sarian, your story was so beautiful and inspiring!

[Sarian]

Thank you, LadyVirgoxoxo. :-)

[CelestialRain]

I would never do "prediction" readings unless using a very safe/specific method (like dreaming divination) and I don't recommend doing prediction readings...I mainly just do current situation/how to approach an event/person things. Maybe the board was a lie, maybe not. People make their own answers. You can still be a mother through adoption! Hope is never gone. Keep that in mind :) If you need additional help, just PM me. This may be rushed since I'm in a hurry. Bless you! And beautiful biography, Sarian.