Domnk
11-02-2011, 10:10 PM
Hi,
This is a bit personal to me, but under the circumstances, I've really no one else to ask about this. Here goes then, this has been going on my entire life, and I've had dark entities hanging around me since I was little, it seems that if I make any friends, especially if they make me feel really good, their entire lives go bad fast for both them and their entire family, at the very least in Winter (I wouldn't know if it's limited to then, but I'll get to that). Also, their cats die. Which to me suggests it's definitely dark critters.
I have a severe memory issues, my longterm memory is pretty much null and void, so I can't remember much, I have maybe occasional fragments, other than that nothing. This apparently has helped me, and hurt me, because I've been isolated a good portion of my life because of this friend problem, and I just lose all memory about them and how I felt. It also cause issues though, for example I forget when I do have a good friend around for a little while because I keep thinking we arent that close.
I put out energy that people get freaked out by, because it's so overwhelming, so most people just stop talking to me immediately after meeting me, I can see into people what their feeling, what their thinking, and who they are really, plus I'm a metaphysical battery essentially, I'm pretty grounded in the metaphysical. So in that regard, making friends is near impossible.
Now, I have alot of protection, but if I draw attention to myself, you can be sure things will start bothering me. I've had psychological and metaphysical attacks, frequently. And even with all my protection there has been problems with thing, and still is a problem, but I manage.
I really do try to make friends, but things are setup so I'm just not allowed to make, keep, or hold on to anyone without them needing to leave, for their safety and their families, or whatever. I was wondering, if anyone else has these problems, I just feel alone, I can't even go school because I can't remember anything after a year, and have had chronic health problems which haven't allowed me to ever work, I wanted to know if I was the only one with this kind of issue... I don't think of my life as bad, it's my life, it just is what it is, I care about people, and it would be disrespectful to say differently, because there is always someone going through and has gone through worse.
Anyway, I was just wondering.. and maybe, I just wanted to talk a little, to someone. And I don't know if you've ever loved someone, who you cosmically aren't allowed to talk to, let alone see, and because you two did, their entire family was put at risk, but it makes you feel, horrible, and alone. Interestingly enough, we show all the signs of being twin flames, more suggesting that than I could write, but my being and my head are in adverse position with eachother, I learned not to put much faith in things, regardless.
This is a bit personal to me, but under the circumstances, I've really no one else to ask about this. Here goes then, this has been going on my entire life, and I've had dark entities hanging around me since I was little, it seems that if I make any friends, especially if they make me feel really good, their entire lives go bad fast for both them and their entire family, at the very least in Winter (I wouldn't know if it's limited to then, but I'll get to that). Also, their cats die. Which to me suggests it's definitely dark critters.
I have a severe memory issues, my longterm memory is pretty much null and void, so I can't remember much, I have maybe occasional fragments, other than that nothing. This apparently has helped me, and hurt me, because I've been isolated a good portion of my life because of this friend problem, and I just lose all memory about them and how I felt. It also cause issues though, for example I forget when I do have a good friend around for a little while because I keep thinking we arent that close.
I put out energy that people get freaked out by, because it's so overwhelming, so most people just stop talking to me immediately after meeting me, I can see into people what their feeling, what their thinking, and who they are really, plus I'm a metaphysical battery essentially, I'm pretty grounded in the metaphysical. So in that regard, making friends is near impossible.
Now, I have alot of protection, but if I draw attention to myself, you can be sure things will start bothering me. I've had psychological and metaphysical attacks, frequently. And even with all my protection there has been problems with thing, and still is a problem, but I manage.
I really do try to make friends, but things are setup so I'm just not allowed to make, keep, or hold on to anyone without them needing to leave, for their safety and their families, or whatever. I was wondering, if anyone else has these problems, I just feel alone, I can't even go school because I can't remember anything after a year, and have had chronic health problems which haven't allowed me to ever work, I wanted to know if I was the only one with this kind of issue... I don't think of my life as bad, it's my life, it just is what it is, I care about people, and it would be disrespectful to say differently, because there is always someone going through and has gone through worse.
Anyway, I was just wondering.. and maybe, I just wanted to talk a little, to someone. And I don't know if you've ever loved someone, who you cosmically aren't allowed to talk to, let alone see, and because you two did, their entire family was put at risk, but it makes you feel, horrible, and alone. Interestingly enough, we show all the signs of being twin flames, more suggesting that than I could write, but my being and my head are in adverse position with eachother, I learned not to put much faith in things, regardless.