Originally Posted by danni022
Even more over because ever since middle school, I've always felt that I would never make it to my thirties. I'm 21 now. It's still hard to see me living in my 30s. I try to imagine it, but I can't.
But I want to know, I guess. I kinda wish someone would just tell me straight up, y'know? All of these feelings are just coming out of nowhere and I want to really know why.
But yeah... there's just... so much death. And with this figure following me around, it makes the feelings even worse.
Do you know what it could be? Is it physical? Is it spiritual? Have you gone through similar situation? I need some serious insight on this. 10 mins with a psychic isn't enough for me. ^^;
And um... sorry if my experiences aren't very well elaborated. I'm bad at writing out how I feel. But feel free to ask more questions.
It may just be part of the ego going through growing stages.
I honestly thought I wouldn't live past 25 years old. Everyone knew I thought that. When I hit 25 and was still alive I thought it was a fluke, that I was just off and by 30 I'd be dead for sure!
My life style certainly supported it, caver, hard core rock climber international traveler in war torn 3 world countries. No way I'd live much longer. (I did NDE at 29 deep in the Amazon Basin, but ended up coming back into body and living through the Shigella Dysentery and medicinal poisoning)
Thirty came around and I wasn't dead, so hesitantly said 'well maybe it's 35'.
35 came around and I was still alive, so I sorta settled into the idea I might live a while longer...I recently past 50 and am still around.
Looking back I think that may have all been fatalistic thinking and hormones.