My self taught experiences so far
This is my first time, I have not told anyone because it has been a very personal thing to me, writing about it now is a little strange but here goes.
About 3 years ago I had a near dying experience where I didnít breathe for about 2 Ĺ minutes. Since then I am able to feel, what I presume is energy, & listen more closer where I didnít before. I have never studied Reiki, this is what I have just thought of and tried, and trying to fine tune my listening/feeling sensations.
After the experience, my doctor told me to start meditating, which is where I had my first sensation. The first basic thing I felt was simply putting my hands apart about 30cms, and feeling the pressing/drawing feeling on the palm of your hands when you moved your hands slightly together/apart.
A few months later when that became easy, I tried having my hands as far apart as possible, increasing my focusing, and feeling the energy again between my hands. After I accomplished this, I tried moving one hand in ever so slightly, and I could feel the pressure on the palm of the other hand, over 1 metre apart.
The next stage which took some time to achieve was to put your hands in front of you, palms up, and within a few seconds it was like my hands were like being stuck in mud. When I move my hands up ever so slightly, you can feel the tingling electric pressure feeling when pushing on it, and when moving hands down so slightly, feeling a drawing/pulling feeling on the palm of your hands, like stretching elastic. The feeling is really awesome, it seems like you are just out of sync with the rest of the world so you can take a step back, watch, observe, and feel it, instead of being part of it.
Most nights I also place my hands about 5 inches from my body, and feel differences. There is always the pushing and pulling feeling, like normal, but some parts like my throat I only have a very weak feeling, and my heart is concerning, if I push slightly I also feel like a knife is a sharp stabbing pain feeling at the centre of my palm. The energy also feels much different, more chaotic, confused?
My current challenge, which I have failed so far, is to experience this energy feeling not just through my hands, but try to expand the sensation to my face, and ultimately, all of my body. I am still trying, I have failed so far.
The sensation of feeling I presume is energy is something I cannot describe, it is really awesome. I do it most nights for a few minutes, but to be honest, doing the same exercises listed above every night, has become somewhat boring. As I said, I have not read any books/teachings, it has been a very personal journey for me up to now.
The downside of keeping it personal is that you donít know if the direction you are heading is correct or not, or if I am making mistakes.
Any advice on how to progress forwards would be very much appreciated.