If you feel that your thoughts are taken away, be happy. In God, which is Love, there is no need for private Thoughts, because private thoughts in God is impossibile.Because God is one with everything.
Ask yourself, what is so precious on theese thoughts, that you want to keep them. You surely dont recognize, that in keeping them you are making yourself prisoner to them.
It is private thoughts, that are making the Ego.It is the Fear of God, which makes you believe, that you will loose everything you have.
But be Happy, because God is Giver
, and he is Giving always
, and never taking
.All he ask is a little thankfullness, which your Higher self knows well and is doing gladly.
Be happy, because when the thoughts are taken away, you are free to experience Love and Freedom,miracles and healing.
Be happy, Because you are NOW nearer to God and his Eternal Life and Love.
Be Happy, because it is the Ego,which is experiencing threat and which can think of killing itself. It is trying to Convince you to stop whatever is happening. But it needs to happen.
Be happy, because you can now recognize which part of your thoughts are The Ego thoughts.
And the Ego thoughts youll need to dismiss.
P.S. Killing the body is destructive thing to do. It is as if you would rather choose Devil than God. And God you do Love and want.
This was the way i had to go. (but with almost none of selfdefeating thoughts) and now on the rules of this forum:
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