In You

[Paige Ignited]

In you
I became lost
And found
It was you
That drew
A map
In my heart

[Paige Ignited]

If the sun don’t rise
And only rain fell
I’d still love you

If the music stops
And the strings break
I’d still love you

If the heart sleeps
And silence becomes
I’ll still love you

[Paige Ignited]

I never thought that you’d forget me
And I know I’ve never forgotten you
This love was always meant to be
Before you bolted through
And what you did back in them days
That we were together
Like was meant to be
I struggle with each and every day
When you chose another over me
What was your point to prove?
When you pushed my love away
Just for your ego to see
If I actually did love you
And how far I’d go, would I fade
And what I’d do, without you
You’ve underestimated me
And diced my ego on a blade
You silly man
Silly man you

[naturesflow]

Your very polite in your choice of words about the man..:)

[Paige Ignited]

Well, he's still the best.
Simply airing 'my' feelings.

[FallingLeaves]

well perhaps
if I hadn't been so tortured
by a you
and your constant betrayals
that I found I had
to actually kill MYSELF
for once in my life
instead of inviting you to betray me
into another horrible death

I wouldn't have gone off with another
looking for my home
away from a you.

and wouldn't now be somewhat enamored
of yet another...

But I guess
you can't remember such things
because of the same affliction
that keeps you away from me...

for as I'm told
once you've had ME killed
you don't last long yourself either...

and the manner of your death
as it seems
invites you to forget
everything you just did.

Don't worry though -
I remember enough
for the both of us

to stay apart
for some time to come...

well you don't really
want this
vast inbetween-ness
to be over
anyway
do you?

[Paige Ignited]

Oh, the vastness
That you create between us
An illusion
Of space
That has no time
Where I haven’t
Loved you
To death itself
Of me
And of you
With this torture
Of us
Not being together

Place my heart
On a cross
And drive a stake
Through my heart
As I love you too much
To survive
Without you

[FallingLeaves]

well this time
when I wanted you
you said no
and started teasing me to death
then called it good for me
once again

I only wanted not to hurt
and you heaped it on me
in spades
once again

and you did have me killed
rather than return my affections
last time I wanted you
and here I am
lost a life
that would have been
relatively nice
just for wanting you
and now I have
my huge unlikeable mess
once again

so I guess my wariness
in these matters
and my unwillingness to believe
you do actually want me
despite your endless chirping
to the contrary
is extremely justified.
once again

After all is said and done
I don't think a lifetime
relating the way we relate
is something I want
I don't think
I could be happy that way

as if I could be happy without you
either

I guess I just have to be unhappy.

so...
oh well...

[Paige Ignited]

Yes, that candy store
Of bullets
Covered in chocolate
But it’s not
The one
I wanted to taste
When you fired
Them all
At me
With no intention
To ever
Catch my fall
And so
I find myself
At the park
Again
On this
Merry go round
Like a black cat
Chasing its tail
Incessantly
Again
As autumn
Drops its leaves

[FallingLeaves]

if i could believe in you
again
I would

but too many times
when you could have ended this torture
you laughed on
for another moment in time
and didn't care
one wit
about my pain.

you told me once
in that mean way you have
that if I did the same things
I always did
I would get the same results
I always got

and while coming from you
that hurt,
just like everything else you say,
I've decided to take you up on it -
If I keep
giving
you
the benefit of the doubt
you will keep
responding
the way
you always have

I don't want
to believe that

I really don't want
to believe that

I would really much prefer
to just go back
to just believing in you
randomly
despite what i see
with my own eyes...

except that hurts.

so i guess
we are saying
good-bye.

now I wanna cry.
sigh.