Is there a better way for both....?
I met a man last year ,only contacted sometimes due to work needs, lately he found me in the spiritual path and he was on that for a long time too, even travelled to India and had guru friends.He contacted me frequently since then,saying he cares about me and feels me a good spiritual friend, he doesnt want to seek a relationship he just wants a friend, so by time he knows about my life, then he texts me all the time, if one day i don't return text, he keeps asking "what's going on?""I m worrying about you,r u ok?".
actually i m in need of some break, i feel suffocating sometimes. he has a health issue that he doesnt tell anyone but me, he seems to be a strong smart and v sociable man in work, in fact he is a lonely soul and worrying about his own health, struggling his relationship, missing his ex.
so , the texts between us is actually helping him, he pours out those inner things to me, but i feel my energy is sucked too much.
Earlier i told him that another one who isn't a spiritual friend sucked me a lot energy and he told me to stopped communicating with that one, cos that is that one's own karma, i didnt need to involve in his karma.... then soon he started to do the same to me......
and if anything against his guru's opinions, he will fight until i agree with him, or at least shut my mouth...lol...
(by the way, i v met a few other people who only believes in their gurus.)
I m a new beginner in this path, havent read many Indian books like he does, not as knowledgable as he is. I m also still on recovery on a few health issues myself, too. so i use law of attraction and visualization ,meditation a lot.i dont know why i attract such energy back to me from time to time....cos i always just ask for very light and v loving energy.....but this energy this friend does give me some deep pondering too, and pushing me to grow , for instance ,without him, i will not come to post this thread.
But this texts and communication is really heavy for me , i feel i m maybe an empathy, i take his inner burden to me?which makes him keep throwing that to me?
I tried to remind him , he said sorry, then he soon starts that again.
An astrologist once told me that in my past life, my energy was sucked too much, i gave and gave, in this life this still continuing,i will still give and nurture others,then one day until i wake up and i need to take that energy back, so my real mission in this life is to find my own energy back.
and i m doing this actually.
but same time i still care about people, especially the weak one.
this friend he has a lot inner chaoes and sadness......the more stronger he appears to people, the weaker he becomes from inner, cos he is wearing a mask in social life.
and he has a serious health issue, he could die easily if not careful by a sudden trauma or something.
and this scares me,
i dont want to hurt him, at least i dont want to be the sinner to make his health worse.
by the law of attraction, i shall only go with the light flow, ignore the dark/negative, but there is a Oneness law, too, all is one, and everyone is a part of ourselves.
I m confused.....
Is there a better way for both to survive and thrive?