emotional numbness

Originally Posted by Silvergirl

Something that unattached/unmarried couples don't always put on the table is their hopes and dreams for the future. Even if they have none, they don't always make it clear so things just float along, drift along w/o any direction. So did you two talk about marriage or anything like that?

We have a complicated relationship. We are friends and there have been times when one of us is attached and the other is not. For now, we're both attached and I am with a soul mate. My twin is my best friend though and even though there is this magnetic pull, we never really delved into anything romantic because our relationship has always been unstable with the push and pull thing (or just him running away). I never tried to clarify things, I guess. Like our telepathic connection. In the past there has been a time when he would ask about our "bond". Like why does he keep dreaming of me, or why do we do the same thing at the same time. I think during those times, I have been the runner. I would just change topic or ignore him even if we were just hanging out. Even though I knew, in my heart, what this is--I couldn't tell him. He needs to figure it out himself.

Originally Posted by faith83

Is it at all possible that you've made peace with the connection (including the push/pull)? Or maybe you've learned to not take his running personal anymore because you know he has his own issues to work out? I'm only asking because when I platoed and was no longer dreaming of him/feeling him was because I stopped fighting the connection. Plus I stopped looking towards him for me to have a good day. The dreams and such was to keep me around when he would run and I would try to rid myself of him. Now I'm good with or without him...still would like to be with him tho.lol
Anyway, my point was just to ask that maybe your spirit is pass that part of the process. You've found a way to become whole within yourself. Now its his turn to to catch up. And you've found a way to be happy in the meantime

Thanks faith83. I might be getting more mature. And you are right, it's for the best. I realized that I can not handle having him in my life at this moment. And maybe it is my ego speaking when I long for him to be there. But in reality, it's not really the best for us. I saw him again unexpectedly. We pretended to be strangers again. But I walked away happy. I am glad that he looks okay and that he is still there. I swear, sometimes I thought he died or something due to the numbness I've been experiencing lately since I am not getting anything from him. You see, we are not even friends on FB and we deleted each other's contact info.

Thanks everyone for your response. I am hanging on. My mood today is SAD but STRONG. I will continue going to this forum. You guys have been my strength. Thanks!

[Xan]

Originally Posted by undertowedheart

I still think of him even if I dont really want him on my mind anymore, but I am feeling...nothing....

Help, please. Any enlightening info could truly help. I am getting a bit scared of my non-reaction (emotionally, at least). I feel like I can't hear my soul anymore. In the past, I would dream of him and I will get "messages" or "enlightenment" of what has been happening or why did he react that way. Now, I don't get anything from him. And I dont feel anything. It's so strange.

Well, undertowed... you said you don't really want him on your mind anymore, so you're getting that, eh?

I suggest you get into feeling your own soul, your inner self. For this a meditation practice is necessary. Here's one you might like:

Three Steps into your true nature - http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...2551#post32551


Xan