I'm so sorry I didn't need an NDE...I relate to every word you said...but, I don't
want to encourage psychotic behavior with someone on their first post!
But, yes, it would be viewed by others looking on as a state of psychosis...but what do they know!!?
It's more real that this place, as you say!!
You are not alone in your experience.
And welcome here, KrystalV...