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Originally Posted by Inika
thanks Anne :) accepting yes and trying not to let it become too distracting.
I have a great spirit guide that helps keep me on track here in 3D. To achieve goals.
Emerald, would you say you are fully there in overcoming depression? 10 years is a long time. 3 years of it felt like eternity for me!
I felt depression was indicating non-alignment within. knowing you are not following the right path that creates your highest joy. A trapped feeling in the mind, like a bird in a cage.
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I remember I used to write alot of songs and poetry about being a caged bird! I felt trapped for so long and didn't know how or that I even could free myself and Yes 10 years is a long time - too long. Especially an age and in an environment where all the adults around me were also trapped in their own mental health prisons - who were in such dense dark clouds of their own that they could not see me drowning.
Thankfully though I had two childhood friends who helped me without even being aware of their impact - who saved me - one who kept my head above water and kept me in the sun when I could not do that alone and the other who saw the light flickering within me when I was drowning in the darkness...
I don't know if I will ever be able to express how grateful I am - but I know that I must find a way to do so... in some way... however my soul needs to express that... and so even sharing here now is one way which I can pay those blessings forward so to speak.
In answer to your question - Yes - I would say that I cured the worst of my depression -at least many of the core issues anyway... this mostly happened in the three months of purging which followed awakening in 2012. I do still feel depressed occasionally but it never seems to last more than a few days- and mostly occurs when I am purging another layer where I feel I am isolated, disconnected, neglected by source, or out of alignment with my highest self aspect as you mentioned.
I have learnt to access so many tools on this TF path which I now use on a daily basis. Some of which came through via a psychologist who I was seeing or something my sibling passed onto me through a wonderful counselor she had but for the majority it was through my own dedication to this TF path of self - love and healing.
When I was a kid we used to own the Louise Hay book 'You can heal yourself" and I remember getting really angry when reading that depression can be caused by repressed emotions lol!
Mindfulness practice has allowed me to live in the moment and learn to embrace my emotions as they come. I was at one point so disconnected from my body, the earth and my emotions that I wasn't even aware that I had any emotions! I had learnt to suppress them as a child for survival.
Now days when depression comes into my experience I welcome it as an old friend - it always has something to show me - it is always trying to alert me to something which my soul needs me to know which my ego might be trying to deny.
You know how depression is called "The black dog?" Well I used this analogy and treated my depression like a friend, a lost little dog who came to me for love and nurturing - I even gave it a name and when it came to visit I would talk to it and ask it what it needed from me... depression has taught me so much about having compassion for self... more often than not even the act of acknowledging what it has to show me is enough.
One think which the TF path has given me is the knowledge on how to access, connect and receive the field of pure unconditional love and ask on behalf of my higher self to heal and transmute any trauma, pain, grief and feelings of disconnection... in doing so though I am open to receive or be guided to what I need and love myself enough to accept compassionate assistance.
I hope that something in my post has helped you - I wanted to express myself as freely as possible in hope that my words would serve the highest good.
Any step - however small you take towards healing adds up - every step however small is a step made with courage and is something to feel quite proud of