My latest kundalini experiences

I know I've been mentioning bits & pieces of my experiences & symptoms already on the forum, but I didn't fully connect all of them to Kundalini energy until yesterday! So (for my own benefit as well as anyone else's) I'm going to describe what's been going on....

First started a couple of weeks ago with an energy vibration in the soles of each foot, travelling up the legs & into the root chakra. It was fairly calm at first, but unmistakeable. With this, came an intense four-day headache that I could not shift.

As soon as the headache left me, the backache started. Again, not too bad at first, but reaching to agonising proportions over the last few days. I also began to have intense loving feelings towards most people, along with a seriously positive, upbeat, blissful kind of attitude. I was also empathically connected to people very strongly indeed.

Then I actually felt the heart chakra vibrating madly, and the loving emotions intensified even more (if that's possible, lol) and I experienced it as intensley physical, a sweet kind of agony that I was desperate to let out. Yesterday I was alternating between these seriously strong blissful, on-top-of-the-world feelings, followed by being so overwhelmed I wanted to burst into tears. Definately fruit-loop material, hehe! Also the energy increased so much that it was blasting up thru my feet, right thru all of my chakras, and almost pulling me up into the air. I was shaking like a leaf and barely able to breathe.

I've also been unable to face much in the way of food, had less sleep per night than when my kids were new-borns, and had an increase in the clairaudience I get each night when I'm about to drop off to sleep. Thankfully things have calmed down a bit today - at least for the time being - although I can still feel energy coursing thru my body at a zillion miles an hour.

Phew, what a rollercoaster ride it's been! This is the strongest I've ever felt the K -stuff, and I'm a little bit nervous of it getting any worse than this. The highs are completely amazing tho, lol!

[daisy]

i don't understand all of this kundalini stuff to be honest but i've had some quite amazing experiences the 'highs' are like nothing else on earth and no enlightener this time i haven't been smoking lol

I've done some further research on what I've been going thru lately, and basically my heart chakra has blasted wide open. Still feeling the effects....seriously loving and compassionate for a while, followed by the overwhelming need to cry in an attempt to release it all.

It's been very hard to act 'normal' this week, but somehow I've got through it and things have settled down again this aftenoon!

Hi Jaycee...Ive just read your post..I can relate a little to your rollercoaster rides..Go with it...Im glad your settling down a little...Maybe Daisy has passed you a smoke lol X

Thanks Celtic_cutty, I'm glad you can relate, cos it sure does seem lonely sometimes, lol!

I found a great article which sums up the whole experience really well. Maybe it will help anyone else who goes through this intense experience.


The Open Heart

by El Collie


In many spiritual traditions, it's considered the greatest blessing when the heart chakra awakens. Many regard this the most important energy center of the human psyche. The heart -- or fourth -- chakra is located at the center of the chest. When this chakra begins to awaken, a variety of sensations and physical symptoms can arise. Often there is a pronounced pressure or heaviness in the chest. This can sometimes interfere with breathing. All kinds of discomfort can riddle this area. The milder disturbances may take the form of fleeting, shooting pains; muscle tensions or the feeling of having wrenched a muscle in the front or back of the chest; dull aching; chest congestion; stabbing pains; vibrating sensations; heart palpitations; irregular or rapid heartbeat and so forth. There can also be more severe pain: a feeling of being impaled by a stake through the center of the chest; a sense of the heart area being ripped open; or even symptoms that convincingly mimic a heart attack. Often there is heat focused in this area when the chakra is awakening. This may feel like a warm, glowing sensation or a feeling of incandescence, with the chest blazing hot as a furnace.

After my heart chakra awakened, I discovered that whenever I was in the presence of anyone who felt sad, I would feel a dark weight on my chest. And when I was with anyone who was directing love toward me, my chest would become very warm. Alan Arkin noticed this same heat in his chest when reading inspirational literature or poetry (Halfway Through The Door: An Actor's Journey Toward the Self). As the heart awakens, profound emotional changes frequently occur. The heart seems to both literally and figuratively break, releasing torrents of sadness and grief. For about six months prior to my acute "illness," I was having periodic bouts of labored breathing (my chest felt very constricted). During this same period, I was often overcome with intense compassion for people. I would be easily moved to tears upon hearing of any adversity in my friends' lives. This was not maudlin pity, but a deep sadness at the spiritual opaqueness of the world. Everyone evoked sweet-sad, deeply affectionate and reverent feelings in me; I felt such innocence and beauty in them all.

There are many transcendent states that can accompany the heart awakening. Numinous beings of love and light may appear. Deep feelings of gratitude, joy and bliss may arise. A sense of the incredible beauty of all creation can be staggering. Tears of rapture can flow as easily and uncontrollably as tears of sorrow. Realization of unity with the divine and/or with all existing beings is dramatic at this time. Tremendous feelings of appreciation and compassion arise. Every sentient being is felt as precious. Often, the suffering of all living beings can be acutely felt. At this stage, people may find that they cannot eat meat or even pick a flower, so exquisite is their awareness of the suffering of other living things. Along with this heightened empathy is often an obsessive desire to do something to raise the consciousness of others and to bring about healing for all. At this point, many people become ardently involved in causes or other concrete actions to benefit others. Much good can come of this. But in the early stages, the compelling urge to help can become evangelical zeal: instead of offering assistance to others, we may try to force our aid and insights upon them. Even with the best intentions, this tactic is counterproductive. As perilous and urgent as the situation seems, it's not within our capacity or our responsibility to save the world (or anyone in it) single-handedly. In The Ultimate Transforma- tion, Dr. R.P. Kaushik says that those who are ready to receive what we have to give (or to teach) will be magnetically drawn to us when the time is right. "So never be in a hurry to uplift other people," he advises. Of course, when one is aflame in a proselytizing frenzy, such wisdom falls on deaf ears. Usually, we have to knock ourselves out (and suffer many head-on collisions) before we learn to detach from the compulsion to do good.

In my own experience, and that of others who have spoken to me about this, the heart doesn't remain in this heightened condition for the duration of the transformational process. Rather, it seems to move through cycles of recognizable peaks and plateaus. To those who have experienced the super sensitivity of the wide open heart, these plateaus may seem regressive. Sri Chinmoy compares the chakras to windows which may open for awhile, then shut down. "Sometimes," he says, "[the heart] opens for a few seconds, a few minutes, or a few days; then it may close again." (Kundalini: The Mother-Power) Although the chakras may open suddenly, they generally take a long time to be fully activated. This gradual processs allows us to acclimate to these extraordinary energies. What appears to be periods of relapse or regression are more likely periods of refinement and harmonizing. As powerful and "saintly" as the newly awakened heart consciousness can be, it is simply too overwhelming for most of us to sustain this heightened state indefinitely. We need to assimilate these experiences, and to be able to move from them back into our ordinary human concerns again.

To me, it seems that the entire transformational process is not merely an elevator that delivers us to a "higher" level of awareness. Evolution is a continuum, though we rarely progress in a linear fashion. Even if we seem to be at a standstill or moving backwards, in actuality, it's a long, intricate process of expansion and balance.

you too?

oh this was music to my ears. my heart chakra seemed to be opening steadier and steadier and then i got sick and it felt like all the work i did disappeared as i gave up chanting, visualising etc.

i have been having heart pulpitations, restricted feelings in the heart chakra area, a feeling like someone is sitting on it, breathing problems etc etc. i wondered if this had something to do with my H chakra. and if it was because i was ill. i felt negative and down again while i was ill. it's great to feel better, and more positive as a result.

it's great that sri chimoy was mentioned. i learnt about opening the heart chakra through his meditation about 10 years ago. i never continued with this group but carried that learning with me none the less.