Video footage on fone

[TonySG]

Hi
I was just looking for some help interpreting a dream please.

I was with two guys - Martin and Tony. I only met these people recently from a group I am involved in. I found Martin quite draining and Tony is a little Chinese guy who I never really connected with. I was with Martin to begin with on a street then we met up with Tony. Tony had a old style red nokia cell phone with push buttons. He was showing me black and white footage and videos on this phone. He showed me one aggressive guy fighting and beating people up. I also remember catching a glimpse of a picture of a nude woman on his phone. I was very interested about what was on this screen. Martin stayed away because he thought what we were doing was boring or harmful.

I than saw some kind of programming language on the screen. Tony told me I could download a new keypad for my fone so it would make typing/texting easier and it looked better.

That was the dream. I am assuming it might have something to do with my programming and communication?

Anyone have any insights?

Thanks

[Michelle11]

The name Martin means warlike so I can see how that kind of behavior would be draining. The name Tony means praise worthy so your sense of pride is trying to show you old behaviors that are keeping you from feeling proud of yourself. The reason Martin doesn't want anything to do with it is because he is the source of you looking down on yourself and if you confront those behaviors his existence is in jeopardy. Even our negative sides don't want to die but you must put that behavior to rest to truly live to your fullest potential and feel good about yourself. Your emotional side feels vulnerable (naked) with the idea of confronting your war with yourself. It hurts to actually feel our own self judgement and self rejection but it must be confronted for you to heal and become your true self. Some early programming, usually from our early upbringing, is causing this warlike draining behavior. Your supportive side is ready to deal with it once and for all and help you talk more nicely to yourself.

I would say try to pay attention to your inner dialogue especially at times you feel uneasy or triggered by life and question the dialogue that pops up especially the demeaning talk. Ask yourself where it may have come from and if it is helping the situation. Then see if you can reframe things to something more supportive. Early programming in how we think and respond to the world can be hard to turn around because it really is hard wired into who we are but with persistent effort you can break your defeating habits and live more your authentic self.

[TonySG]

Originally Posted by Michelle11

The name Martin means warlike so I can see how that kind of behavior would be draining. The name Tony means praise worthy so your sense of pride is trying to show you old behaviors that are keeping you from feeling proud of yourself. The reason Martin doesn't want anything to do with it is because he is the source of you looking down on yourself and if you confront those behaviors his existence is in jeopardy. Even our negative sides don't want to die but you must put that behavior to rest to truly live to your fullest potential and feel good about yourself. Your emotional side feels vulnerable (naked) with the idea of confronting your war with yourself. It hurts to actually feel our own self judgement and self rejection but it must be confronted for you to heal and become your true self. Some early programming, usually from our early upbringing, is causing this warlike draining behavior. Your supportive side is ready to deal with it once and for all and help you talk more nicely to yourself.

I would say try to pay attention to your inner dialogue especially at times you feel uneasy or triggered by life and question the dialogue that pops up especially the demeaning talk. Ask yourself where it may have come from and if it is helping the situation. Then see if you can reframe things to something more supportive. Early programming in how we think and respond to the world can be hard to turn around because it really is hard wired into who we are but with persistent effort you can break your defeating habits and live more your authentic self.

Thanks Michelle. That's helpful :)

I think I am much more conscious of the way I talk to myself now. Having been on this 'journey' for a while now. I always used to think I was close to finally overcoming my pain and past. But then something else would pop up. So I understand what you say about these programmings been hard wired into us. It takes a lot of work. I have come to the point where I don't anticipate being 'healed' anymore. Instead I just do the work. If I reach that point then great. But I have developed certain character virtues on this journey, such as strength and courage which are helping me in my life more so than ever. Thanks again for your help!

[Michelle11]

I recently came across a short lecture from a self help coach and she talked about how our responses to life are actually caused not by what happened but by how we interpret what has happened. It isn't the even itself but the meaning we assign to the event that brings us joy or pain. She gave an example of someone being told their hair looks awful. In the first example she said imagine someone was insulting your purple hair but your hair is actually blonde. Well since your hair isn't purple you likely would not at all have been offended instead thinking what the heck is wrong with that person they don't know what they are talking about or they are color blind. Either way the point is we would not have made it personal. But say you had blonde hair and the insulter proclaimed that your blonde hair was horrendous. all manner of inner dialogue may follow leading us into believing we are ugly and unloved. None of it is true, it is all our inner bias that colors our world. So maybe just try and think in terms of shifting your perception of yourself as opposed to trying to monitor the thoughts you have. Monitoring them only won't heal the inner pain. Only confronting and shifting the beliefs we hold will heal the pain. Anyways, I thought it a great example of how to separate ourselves from what is happening in our world to maybe take life less personally. I know my mother saw people as the enemy out to get her. Not schizophrenia levels, a lot less subtle but I picked it up and fell into the trap of believing bad things about me that were not true. So I just try to tell myself life is neutral. I'm the one who gives it context and what kind of context do I want it to be now. Demeaning or life affirming. I have to redirect my inner dialogue often but it gets easier with time. Hugs.

[Perfection]

I found Martin quite draining and Tony is a little Chinese guy who I never really connected with.....
....... Martin stayed away because he thought what we were doing was boring or harmful.

The dream is saying that you can avoid Martin causing you distress if you hang out with the Chinese guy instead. He may seem a little out of touch but that gap can be bridged easily & it will save you from being drained by martin.