What is bothering you?

What's bothering me?.

On my path of awakening I have gone through so many "awakening moments " that I've lost count but that's not the part that's bothering me .
What is though is that I came to the realization one day that everything is backwards so to speak and there is this massive misunderstanding and I can see how the worlds people are controlled like puppets and no one holds an opinion that they personally came up with and I don't see how we as a people can stop this misinfermation because of how brainwashed we have become it's so bad that all of are tools we have mentally for judging/ logical decisionmaking/ validating/ you name it there all tools given by this controlling force so that we have no way of decerning the actual fundamental truth.
The other thing is also an example of the 1st point
And that is this "god is love" movement believe it or not but the all Creator is something that is not quantitative and no attribute can be Associated to. I can go further into it but I don't want to rant to much lol.

Only what I (the deeper 'I') let bother me (the surface 'I'). These days it's nothing of any significance or duration and not worth the mention.

I'd rather spend the energy on what I'm grateful for.