Past life longing

[356]

I've seen many stories and videos about children with past life memories and that they forget them by a certain age. I've also seen many videos about once they have acknowledged these past lives and people they remember all the pain goes away.

But for me its the opposite. I had a few memories of previous lives when I was a kid and in the last 6 years or so ive remembered more and more. To the point I have atleast one other FULL set of memories and 2- 3 partial sets from other lives. I've had many lives and died many different ways.

I know of 2 different families (dad's, mother's, brothers, sisters) and I've had my own family with 2 different wives. One of the woman stands out to me the most though. I've known her in many life times and I've had children with her in every life time I remember.

Once back in the 1800's. we had 2 teenage boys and a little girl that made it to around 5 before she died.

I was alive again around the ww2 but so far I don't remember my family and such from that time.

I again was alive in the 70's and I had a daughter and a son. both were killed. As was my wife.

I remember her dying everylife time. there was only once when I went before her.

I also have memories of her inbetween lives.
whats strange is I've seen myself (what I looked like in previous lives and I WAS a woman too, not a man) so I've no idea how we had the children but they looked exactly like us.

Anyway I haven't met her again this life. Im starting to wonder if I will or not. But I long for her. I cry over her EVERY night. some days im ok, when I keep myself busy and distracted. But I miss her all the time... its more than missing her. I cant describe how it feels honestly. Its overwhelming.
I hear about people healing from past lives but honestly I cant let her go. I don't want to let her go. And I don't think I could if I tried. I love her. she means everything to me, more than anything in the physical world.
So I struggle through everyday. its hard because its not like I cant talk to anyone about it. I mean how do you tell someone that you miss a woman you've never even met, yet you know everything about her.

Shes more real to me than anything here. I just want to meet her again.
It feels like punishment being alive without her.

[desert rat]

You might meet this person in this life time . This person may be with some one else. That person might be a lot younger , or older than you . You could meet some one else you knew from other lives , or you might marry some one you have never known . I would not spend a lot of time worring about it . If you do have pain from past lives you can focus in on the pain and do deep breathing to clear it .

ahh 356, i have memories like that too and some just have a talent for remembering past lives. i remembered most of mine though i am sure there are many that i haven't remembered. some patterns i've been in for lives, and i've almost always been single - i have been in every life that i have clear memories of, or i've died young. and it's a pattern i long to break. i am now 37 (so past the dying young phase compared to past lives) but still single and in many ways somewhat shut down. i'm not sure what to do to progress, and while sometimes i feel fine, other times i feel lost and useless and alone and fat and ugly and then i just resign myself to accept being single forever and become filled with love and gratefulness for all i DO have. and then that makes me wonder if that means that is the life/lives i'll always lead - as everyone's friend, but no one's love. *shrug*

i am sure there is a lesson in there for me, just like i am sure there is one in there for you. i wish i had the easy answer to what it is because i am sure it would help us both!

[linen53]

You're just starting out in your life and have a long ways to go.

It's best to take one day at a time and let what will happen, happen. Let go of what you want and allow Universe to lead you where you need to go. Understand you are here to learn certain things and go about doing that. In other words, live your life.

Someday, you will understand. I guarantee it.

Holding onto what you want to happen will only deter you from your goals.

[356]

What im trying to say is NOTHING stops the longing. Ive tried to heal but I don't heal. The pain just comes back. And its not pain over things that happened in previous lives, I can accept what happened. Its pain of missing her. I feel like im half a person.
And thats just it... I've never felt that I belong here. From when I was little to now. Ive always felt like I want meant to be born. Everyone else I know is quite content living in the world the way it is. Having a job or better yet a career, a goal, something to strive for. I don't have that urge at all. Because there is nothing I want. Because in the scheme of things it doesnt matter. The only thing ive ever felt like I was meant to do is to find the other half of me.
I still do things, I still have two jobs and have a career and try to maintain friendships and socialize. But I do it because I have to to survive, because its how society is and because the people around you like family expect it of you. The worlds based on earning money and working your whole life. Sure theres other things I could do, live a different way... But theres nothing I want, nothing that interests me.
Everything we've created is just so unimportant.

[linen53]

Okay, I heard that in your first post.

I disagree when you said "that most people are content living in the world the way it is." We all have pain of one sort or another. My longing is to go "home". Nothing else will fill my void. Everyone has something of a void in them. But I keep moving forward because I can only move forward, not backwards.

[desert rat]

I think most of us on this world now have had past lives with many different people . We have had many different partners . I just dont get this one true soul mate . I did find some you tube videos on finding a soul mate .
http://www.youtube.com/results?searc...ind+a+soulmate
I have scene self hypnosis cds to regress in to past lives and find out who we shared lives/karma with . I think D. Sutphen still has a self hypnosis mp3 down load to find thoes we share karma with , if not you can find old tapes on amazon . If you want D. Sutphen's link let me know in p.m. this forum does not like links to sites selling stuff .