Forgiveness of the self you were in past lives

this is a wonderful thread! i am in a similar situation. i have lots of past life memories, but not in a single one of them have i ever been in a positive, successful relationship. i've been poisoned by a significant other, widowed, died young, left when my love died young, and even spent entire lives purposefully alone on the road (old west - the life i most think fondly back on despite knowing it was such a hard, lonesome life, i still miss it because i didn't care that i didn't have a significant other).

i sense that not only do i need to work past this to be in a relationship again this life (had very few, and the one truly serious one ended horribly over a decade ago and have just been totally closed off since then), but that it's also tied to my solar plexus block, AND to my holding on to unnecessary fat / weight that despite dramatic diet and exercise change (even thyroid supps!) has failed to budge. the more i reconnect, the more i see these things are all intertwined.

i'd love to better understand how to uncover this and where/why and learn to open up and move forward!

Originally Posted by CJ82Sky

this is a wonderful thread! i am in a similar situation. i have lots of past life memories, but not in a single one of them have i ever been in a positive, successful relationship. i've been poisoned by a significant other, widowed, died young, left when my love died young, and even spent entire lives purposefully alone on the road (old west - the life i most think fondly back on despite knowing it was such a hard, lonesome life, i still miss it because i didn't care that i didn't have a significant other).

When I read your words it seems you have your answer right within them. The life you miss is the one where you did not care if you had a significant other. So maybe it goes wrong because you try to have something you deeply do not want, at least not in the conventional way. Does that make sense

the life i miss i have romanticized in my own way - it was a sad and sullen one. i killed many people, and lived on the outskirts of the law. i was mostly alone save for one friend that is still one of my best friends in this life. i was in bar fights, i often lived on the road (in the woods), and had little good in my life.

what i remember is the carefree call of the wild and my love of the old west. in reality i am well aware that the bad i did this life is a big part of the block i am dealing with this one...

i wish it were true, but it is not something i deeply do not want. it is something that i have pushed so far down from so many bad experiences, that i have completely disconnected and justified it with romancing the ideas of a past life that was far harsher and rougher than i choose to remember. :/

Originally Posted by CJ82Sky

the life i miss i have romanticized in my own way

Yes but I guess you would not have done that if it did not hold a beauty you missed. Simply forgive yourself for what you have done because it seem to might block that beauty out of your present self. Neither is there anything wrong in rewriting your past so it lift you up instead of pulling you down. A previous post of mine addresses that

yes, thank you :) and i know it goes far beyond that - or rather deeper, that's the life i've been told - and i feel rings true - that i stopped progressing on whatever the underlying issue is.

love & light and many thanks!

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It was a big part of my process. Forgiveness was a key for me. I relived some of them. But I think it can happen naturally thru life. I had to let go of belief systems as much as I could. Lots of war memorys. Civil war was one. Being a thief after the war. No not a billy the kid or other famous person. I don't think. Lol. Lots of forgiveness and letting go of idealogys. I truly feel blessed of any and all experiences looking back. I beliece it helps me have an open heart to more.