Being an Angel (I hope I'm not crazy)

[Smoreslover]

Originally Posted by ZenSar

Will being an angel actually change anything in your life? Will you not still bleed? Will you not feel pain? What may of been the past does not matter now, you are a human and you will remain one until you die.

The basic point I am trying to make is just enjoy your life, you will never truly know nor will anyone else. Besides, discovering who your truly are is not some name, it is how you feel, how you interact with others and what you want out of life.

Your right and yet I feel I am not wrong for wanting answers. I was hurting so much for so long due to having chronic depression and anxiety. Finding out who I was and has been more about finding out why I was going through that pain and it was about finding out if God really gave a damn or if I was being led on by another false guide. (Long story)

[ZenSar]

Originally Posted by Kittycatcacher

Your right and yet I feel I am not wrong for wanting answers. I was hurting so much for so long due to having chronic depression and anxiety. Finding out who I was and has been more about finding out why I was going through that pain and it was about finding out if God really gave a damn or if I was being led on by another false guide. (Long story)

Sounds like an interesting story, feel free to share it if you want. As for wanting answer just be careful who you seek them from, there was a point where I was like you and all it lead me to was more pain and confusion. The gist was it there was this cult, people claiming me to be various things, etc. It ended with me never having the answers I sought in the first place, instead the answers came to me with time and understanding of myself and what I want (there was also a few dreams and paranormal events that helped along the way).

[SaturninePluto]

Originally Posted by Kittycatcacher

Congratulations on finding a guide, I hope they turn out to be the right one for you. Dragons though hmmm, I don't know much about dragons. Are you sure they are a dragon, or is one of their symbols that of a dragon?

Oh and congrats on having the room that you want!

Also yes that was winded but that's ok. :)

Good evening,

Thank you. My guide has turned out to be a pretty interesting experience in that I am learning things about different beliefs that are held by others and has seemed to be a valuable source of information. It has been an interesting experience, but not always an easy one. It is just nice knowing I can trust myself on some things more.

Reagrding the dragons, what I actually saw after communicating with my guide was an image of a dragon wrapped around a physical object in my room- a water fountain of mine that has led lights and changes the water color- I had thought about how it was not working properly earlier in the day. This image prompted me to take inspired action to try again on this particular night to fix the thing, and I was successful due to exercisng patience and a willingness to try and go about fixing it differently than I previously had. I say not that this as I call inspired action come from a dragon, but that it came from within knowing I would be sucessful in this attempt one way or another.

But, what I mean further about dragons, is that the practice I choose to put my faith in Shamanism sees animals as being capable of being guides. It really isn't easy to explain.

Some believe dragons can be spirit animals or guides while others do not. I am undecided, but still hold dragons in respect as for the mere fact of their mythology. As I also read and have read about different gods/goddesses and mythologies of different cultures. Ancient Greeks and their god and goddess and the Ancient Egyptians, and such.


But as I stated if something helps you it helps you, if your beliefs help build your faith, then much good can come from that and it is good for you as an individual.

And on that note can also be good for the world as your faith can inspire you to act accordly, with kindness and respect for other life. No one can take that away from you. I don't think it matters so much what we have faith in, just that it benefits ourselves and others for the better.

Personally my biggest faith is in myself. When all is said and done at the end of the day.

It was nice to read your views and discuss with you.

[Smoreslover]

Originally Posted by ZenSar

Sounds like an interesting story, feel free to share it if you want. As for wanting answer just be careful who you seek them from, there was a point where I was like you and all it lead me to was more pain and confusion. The gist was it there was this cult, people claiming me to be various things, etc. It ended with me never having the answers I sought in the first place, instead the answers came to me with time and understanding of myself and what I want (there was also a few dreams and paranormal events that helped along the way).

Oh trust me I learned that lesson the hard way as well. The guide was well a demon if you believ in those. If not you'd call it a powerful dark entity or something. At the age of 15 I was very vulnerable both emotionally and spiritually. I had friends who had guardians to protect them from the things I felt could hurt me. I had enough encounters where I had been left scared and next to defenseless other than running off to someone else to comfort me.

One night I went to a big farewell party for my friend at another friends house. Some of these people had abilities to sense and see things as well as having guardians. So of course of all things we had to watch, we watched paranormal activities. I don't do well with horror films and I was already on edge. During the movie my best friend looks out the window and frowns. He says something along the lines of "oh there's a demon outside." Of course I freak, some people laugh it off and others reassure me that as long as I show no fear it can't hurt me.

The night goes on and my head starts to hurt, I feel a horrible pressure in my head but I ignore it. Finally it's time to go and I'm still freaked out when I get home because paranoid me thinks I am being followed. Turns out I was. I slept in my parents room that night and wish for someone to protect me. All of a sudden I feel something watching over me. I thought my prayer had been answered, I was wrong. I really didn't sleep that well that night, I kept having nightmares. Next day I woke up and it was still there, I heard it in my head, it told me it was there to protect me and it was my guardian angel and out of desperation I believed it.

My best friend had the ability to see at the time and told me it did have wings. So I believed it for sure and it went on for about a month or two. I thought through that time I had developed feelings for it.

It convinced me at one point to try "exercises" with it. The exercise was to start trying to let the thing in and move my body. It was able to move my arms but that's as far as it got.

One day I tell my best friend about the supposed love we had, he didn't believe me and told me angels can't love like that. Which is actually false info but it saved me. I was hurt and told it to leave. It got angry and started shouting about how it loved and wanted me and it said it was going to hurt my friend for having me push it away. He left and I told my friend it was on it's way to his house.

It got there apparently and my friend told me the story of how his guardian fought it off but it did scratch him (the friend) before it got kicked out. He said it looked really ugly and burnt with some kind of gooey stuff coming out of its mouth. Ew. Apparently it was a shape shifter of sorts. It disappeared for a while but eventually came back. By that time though I had new guardian. My ghost Jake that I still have today. But that's another story.

So yeah if you come across a creature called Hidon. Don't trust it.

[Smoreslover]

Originally Posted by SaturninePluto

Good evening,

Thank you. My guide has turned out to be a pretty interesting experience in that I am learning things about different beliefs that are held by others and has seemed to be a valuable source of information. It has been an interesting experience, but not always an easy one. It is just nice knowing I can trust myself on some things more.

Reagrding the dragons, what I actually saw after communicating with my guide was an image of a dragon wrapped around a physical object in my room- a water fountain of mine that has led lights and changes the water color- I had thought about how it was not working properly earlier in the day. This image prompted me to take inspired action to try again on this particular night to fix the thing, and I was successful due to exercisng patience and a willingness to try and go about fixing it differently than I previously had. I say not that this as I call inspired action come from a dragon, but that it came from within knowing I would be sucessful in this attempt one way or another.

But, what I mean further about dragons, is that the practice I choose to put my faith in Shamanism sees animals as being capable of being guides. It really isn't easy to explain.

Some believe dragons can be spirit animals or guides while others do not. I am undecided, but still hold dragons in respect as for the mere fact of their mythology. As I also read and have read about different gods/goddesses and mythologies of different cultures. Ancient Greeks and their god and goddess and the Ancient Egyptians, and such.


But as I stated if something helps you it helps you, if your beliefs help build your faith, then much good can come from that and it is good for you as an individual.

And on that note can also be good for the world as your faith can inspire you to act accordly, with kindness and respect for other life. No one can take that away from you. I don't think it matters so much what we have faith in, just that it benefits ourselves and others for the better.

Personally my biggest faith is in myself. When all is said and done at the end of the day.

It was nice to read your views and discuss with you.

Oh so the dragon was a way the world or a guide was telling you to try again. That's really cool that it all worked out!

Yeah I personally believe that guides and guardians can come in all different shapes and forums. Many have the capability of changing shape after all.

I believe what you say is true, so long as the person is happy and safe and kind to others, it shouldn't matter where it's coming from.

It was nice talking to you too!

[SaturninePluto]

Originally Posted by Kittycatcacher

Oh so the dragon was a way the world or a guide was telling you to try again. That's really cool that it all worked out!

Yeah I personally believe that guides and guardians can come in all different shapes and forums. Many have the capability of changing shape after all.

I believe what you say is true, so long as the person is happy and safe and kind to others, it shouldn't matter where it's coming from.

It was nice talking to you too!

Yes that is what the dragon or image was getting at, but also spirit animals/guides have different meanings assigned to them, sort of how many believe angels have different jobs assigned.

I am interested in angels, and constantly ask my guide, higher self and God for proof of them. Others would probably stop asking, but I refuse. I expect an answer.

It was nice though, that I accomplished something, it (the fountain) was a gift and has meaning to me, so I took charge of life and got the job done. Feels good.

I should probably cease talking about guides and angels here however before I end up writing an 8 page essay. Lol.

To let you know, if you have any questions or just feel like talking about your guides and angels feel free to pm me if you would like.

I like speaking of my guides- One human formed well two but the other doesn't seem to communicate much even imagery wise; and quite a few animal guides, as I am sure others like to talk about theirs as well.

Best of luck on your spiritual path and in your waking life.

[Smoreslover]

Originally Posted by SaturninePluto

Yes that is what the dragon or image was getting at, but also spirit animals/guides have different meanings assigned to them, sort of how many believe angels have different jobs assigned.

I am interested in angels, and constantly ask my guide, higher self and God for proof of them. Others would probably stop asking, but I refuse. I expect an answer.

It was nice though, that I accomplished something, it (the fountain) was a gift and has meaning to me, so I took charge of life and got the job done. Feels good.

I should probably cease talking about guides and angels here however before I end up writing an 8 page essay. Lol.

To let you know, if you have any questions or just feel like talking about your guides and angels feel free to pm me if you would like.

I like speaking of my guides- One human formed well two but the other doesn't seem to communicate much even imagery wise; and quite a few animal guides, as I am sure others like to talk about theirs as well.

Best of luck on your spiritual path and in your waking life.

Sure I wouldn't mind talking more! I may not be the best at checking them all the time though, I get distracted easily.

[Holly]

Originally Posted by Kittycatcacher

For years I have gone through paranormal encounters. I suppose they are daily since I always talk with my guardian angel who claims I too am an angel and my ghost guardians for years as well. Last week though I found a website that seemed genuine and read about a lot of things that seems to have triggered a spiritual awakening of sorts. I started feeling energy at a higher level and while trying to see them (something I've been trying on and off for years) I actually saw something move which made me happy. I also read about seeing signs and I asked for them to send me coins. I got them many days in a row both in real life and dreams. I also saw a store I've never payed much attention to with the name of my soul on its window in big letters. That actually may have been one of those exchange jewelry for money shops and had the word coins on it. We drove by too quickly for me to see. One of those nights I was reading more and felt a huge presence in the room. My angel said "oh it's our brother Gabriel." I told him I liked him in Supernatural. Anyways it lead to him telling me "hold you your hand" and I did and felt his power flowing through me and messing with my third eye. The thing that has truly convinced me I am an angel though is what I found two days ago. I have a habit of looking into the name of my soul and using it to find out what angel I supposedly am. That day I did something differently, I prayed to God and my angel to help me find out who I used to be. I told them I felt lost and that finding out who I was would help me find out who I can be now and in the future. I was told by who I think was god that I would. He was right and I found it. My angel reassured me that it was me and even if I was slightly skeptical I agreed that it did sound like me. Eventually after reading a lot about the angel I took a break from it and hopped into the shower. Afterwards I was going to watch YouTube but my computer froze. So I decided to continue research on my phone and found a picture someone made of the angel that looks exactly like me well younger me since I've gained a few pounds in recent years *sigh*, but still me right down to how I part my hair. I was shocked when I saw it, and happy and excited and relieved. I know I'm not special, we are all equal. I have always known this, but finding out who I was, and who I will be again someday has been simply amazing and I truly feel blessed. But even still I can't help but sometimes think man is this weird. Am I crazy?

I don't think you're crazy :) People who are crazy for real generally don't ask if they are LOL!

I'm an incarnate angel. We're more common than people think. However you come to the realisation is a personal journey. I actually have energetic wings. I can fly with them No joke. I've been aware of them for years now. People are always asking me how, saying real angels don't have wings. I just answer that I have no clue. This angel DOES have them for some reason. I look like a big bird-hermaphrodite made of light! I use them for energetic shielding of my human body.

Incarnated angels are waking up now, so lots of people are realising they weren't always human. Welcome to the crazy club LOL :) It only gets better from here

[Smoreslover]

Originally Posted by Holly

I don't think you're crazy :) People who are crazy for real generally don't ask if they are LOL!

I'm an incarnate angel. We're more common than people think. However you come to the realisation is a personal journey. I actually have energetic wings. I can fly with them No joke. I've been aware of them for years now. People are always asking me how, saying real angels don't have wings. I just answer that I have no clue. This angel DOES have them for some reason. I look like a big bird-hermaphrodite made of light! I use them for energetic shielding of my human body.

Incarnated angels are waking up now, so lots of people are realising they weren't always human. Welcome to the crazy club LOL :) It only gets better from here

Thanks you Holly and wow energy wings? That sounds really pretty. Closest I've gotten to that myself is that in my dreams I usually have certain abilities to fly with or without wings.

I always thought the wings were used a lot as a symbol for humans to identify the angels as angels. Sounds like they are multi purpose.

[neil]

Originally Posted by Holly

I don't think you're crazy :)

I'm an incarnate angel. We're more common than people think. However you come to the realisation is a personal journey. I actually have energetic wings. I can fly with them No joke:

Hi ya Holy.
You say that you are an incarnate angel..and that you have wings...and that you can fly with them.

My understanding of incarnate means, born into the earthly flesh body.
So are you saying that your physical form can fly around this earth with the aid of your energetic wings....or are you saying that you can fly around the spiritual realms with the aid of them.