How did I do and how can I improve?

[Rsandee]

It has come to my attention that I was dwelling too much on my doubts and fears, it has come to a point where I was scared for the sake of fear. In order to fulfill my desires I have decided to fill me with poaitive emotions instead, like love.

I decided to do something I had a lot of trouble with in the past, letting go. I layed down on my bed and looked up some binaural beats that helped overcoming fear and tried to enter sleep paralysis. Even though my face was itching for longer than what felt like ten minutes, I never moved. I felt my body turning into "stone", except for my head. I've always been too active inside my head, so I tried another 20 minutes to relax. I imagined floating on water and gently allowing it to drown me, my way of trying to let go. Sadly, this was as far as I got. I felt my breathing getting harder and harder to continue but I never actually got any visual or auditory hallucinations.

Seeing as this is the furthest I've ever gotten, I'm satisfied for now, but I'd like to do better in the future. Any tips?

[astralsuzy]

You are doing well even though you have not succeeded. I like the part where you imagined you were floating on water. That sounds relaxing. You will get there. Keep trying and persevere with it.
That is a great idea to fill yourself with love. That would help a lot.