Constantly flinching and could not bring in light during meditation, help?

[stonecollector]

I know how important shielding and asking for divine protection too, but there's big but:

Been doing meditations practicing putting up shielding of light around me every time I do that, I flinched several times and get nasty telegrams from entity not interested in my meditation/crystal/spiritual hobby. Ditto to holding crystals get same reaction from the entity making me to flinch every time I try. Each instantaneous shock wave going my mind breaking up what I am doing made me to flinch. Like slap a leg would make a distracted person to jump slightly.

I do have grounding and protective crystals but couldn't reach for these due to flinching every time entity whipped his/her energy at me.

Also why is entity doing his/her best to not let do what I like for so long too, practically years? I would appreciate taking a look to see what you can discover, just ask me for permission?

Is there way especially outside help to keep entity at bay or send a right crystal to someone who can program it in a way protective being is summoned and asked to come to the rescue once I hold a programmed crystal? Get your foot in the door so to speak idea?

Have you took your time to view some of these youtube movies I posted over there under ghost/haunting thread? These are real, take note that I would not post them for pranks fun, I'm right now frustrated. What makes me really sure that was entity did react and communicate with me in messages based on what I say or doing certain things instead of silent entity.

Cheers, Stonecollector