Hey All, the time has come to stop hiding.

Hi all.

I am new to here, I have been looking for a long time to find answers to my questions.

You know many times you can run but you can never hide, I am walking proof of this, but at the same time, perhaps it was all coincidence at a universal scale , I just do not know any more. the less I want to believe in it, the more stronger it seems to get.

It all began when I was a child, I didn't really have a loving childhood, mostly filled from abuse from parents, people, had no where to run. but that is another story.

I don't claim to be special, or anything because I am not. as much as I hate people I feel I have to save them too which is kind of ironic.

It all began when my father he killed a chicken in front of me, I will never forget it, that chicken looked me into the eye, I could feel its fear, I really could, it was so frightened, and I couldn't do anything, after that moment time I decided to quit eating meat at the age of five, I couldn't eat things which was alive, to me it was all wrong.

The Falklands War was on the news, I must have been 6 years old, all I remember doing is crying because I knew war was so wrong.

Then once around the same age, we went to a house where this child who was disabled was tied up, I don't know why I sensed his sadness, and I shouted at his parents, now bear in mind I was only 6 or 7, I remember coming home sitting on the stair in the garden and crying my eyes out, because it was so wrong.

Now another moment I was sitting on the window frame looking out into the street below, I see a vision of a guy on a motorbike coming around the corner and falling off, 10 seconds later the same guy on his motor bike comes around the corner and falls off, I was like wow.

All my life I have had all this coincidences, some people say they are gifts, I say they are curse.

in 2005, one week before a major earthquake happened in the east, I told my friend, that it was going to happen, around 200 000 people died, I knew and i couldnt do anything, On that Saturday morning it happened, that night I couldn't sleep at all, when it happened I phoned my friend at 7 am and told him to turn on the news. and boom there it was.

I have seen things which other people in the same room as me, can't see.

The once I was lying in my bed, I got up looked out my bedroom window I see my friends uncle driving his car, I see him have an accident, later that evening, he has a major accident.

I was at work the once, there use to be a man, he was rich, owned a shop, always looking down on people, I was angry, I don't know why, I looked at him and told him to die in my head, that night he dies from an heart attack, I felt so bad.

A guy who use to work at the shop by where I live, 2 months before he was diagnosed with cancer, I could feel it, I wanted to tell him but I couldn't, he was feeling dizzy and feinted, he was diagonsed with bone cancer, but I knew before he did :( I felt bad I didn't tell him.

There are a lot more things I can write a whole lot more.

please some one tell me why me. I don't want this, I just want to be left alone.

I hate going outside, I hate where there are a lot of people, I can hear peoples thoughts, I can feel what they feel, I hate it. I really do.

I just want to be normal :'(

I pray all of I have said so far as just been one great cosmic coincidence.

thank you for reading.

[knightofalbion]

A very warm welcome to the form!

'Normal'? (What is normal?) Far better to be extraordinary - and good with it.

[love9]

Hi Vampirex, a warm welcome to SF, and, a great spiritual journey to you here!