Dear Mother
Dearest Mother,
I tried my best to be a
Good child but I was just that,
A child.
Your voice was mean
Because you were so
Mild in spirit,
So scared that your truth
Would be held in contempt instead of
Love.
Dearest Mother,
In my fear I too took on
The ways of a scared woman -
Timid, too timid to speak
My truth and in my fear
I left seeping wounds to
Bleed.
I live amongst a creed of
Powerful women who were never
Taught how to use their
Wisdom or meet the violent
World with the courage
Or persistence to walk with loyalty
To ones self and ones
Own convictions.
Dearest Mother,
I carry this torch of pain -
As I try my best to rewrite
These stories...
These stories which still
Go unwritten -
These stories where I fall
A million times a minute...
Dearest Mother,
I feel that I have failed you.. But
Reality comes to remind me of
My truth.
How can it be failure when these
Paths have not been forged before?
How can my expression be held in
Contempt...
Such sacred wisdom which was once
But is no longer
Violently oppressed.
Dearest Mother,
Dearest Daughter...
I will rise again after each fall -
I will face myself each day,
I will walk tall and face the world -
Even when I am in pain -
I will treat my wounds with compassion -
For in this way,
I will release the chains.
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Well I did predict that I'd fall at some point... And I did also mention that I would choose courage again
Dearest Mother... I acknowledge your past hurts from established cultural norms and I love you. Lots more stories for us to write, some wins and some falls.... I love them all.