how do you let go when you are ready to pass?

I feel ready to pass. I've had over 4 decades battling depression and other things and I don't see myself getting well. I also think it would be a relief for my loved ones as well, so they dont continue to suffer because of me.

I went the suicide route before. In fact, I'm very ashamed over putting everyone thru that :( I wish I never went down that road. I was in so much pain, I really wanted to stop suffering. I never intended to hurt them, but I see how I did and I am so sorry for the pain I caused.

I promised I would not do that again, so I feel like I'm in limbo.

Like I said, I'm ready. I'm ready to stop suffering. I'm trying to let go, but I don't know how to let go completely. I have health issues that make me sense its close, but still I'm not sure how to fully let go.

I keep praying for God to receive my spirit, yet I keep waking up everyday.

Are there spirit guides to call upon for this? I've never had a spirit guide.

I can feel my spirit trying to be free. Its almost like a clamoring feeling. I don't know how to express it.

Sorry for the odd question....I really am ready tho. Like I said, I don't want it to be by my own hand tho.

I am no expert in this area but one thing maybe you should ponder if you feel ready to go but yet you keep waking up every day that may be a sign you have unfinished business. The powers that be will take you when the lessons are done.
just a thought
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Yumi14, I feel sad for you, I can't imagine feeling so hopeless, is there really no way to control your pain? or your depression? There are medications that should be of help. There's a reason that you wake up every day, You don't think that you have a Spirit Guide, I believe that we all have one.Sorry, I have no suggestions for you to end it.

[linen53]

Have you considered regression therapy with a hypnotherapist? It might be connected to a past life with unresolved issues and those (depressing) emotions might be a bleed-over into this lifetime.

A good hypnotherapist can also contact your higher self for some answers as to why you are suffering. Sometimes just shedding some light on the problems can give you an ah-ha moment.

I know how it feels to be so disconnected and feel like you are living in a deep well.

If I had a severe problem or depression I would find a way to do this. If I didn't have the money I'd find a way to get it even if I had to eat beans and rice for a couple of months (with ketchup please).

You deserve some answers!

As to the afterlife, I've read many accounts of those who have crossed over. Suicides are almost always very disappointed because they had assumed their suffering would have ended...but it didn't. Everything was the same except they didn't have a physical body.

[Black Sheep]

Ah, suffering,.... I once heard that when we hit our lowest point, we are open to the greatest change. Sometimes it seems that our mind is ready before our body, and our greatest teachers are also our greatest obstacles.

I don't think your question is odd at all, and I think you've articulated your situation quite well. It's quite relatable, how to let go when one doesn't even know how. Are you interested in stopping suffering or looking for more like a relief or coping technique? The two may sound the same, but are entirely different. In one, there is an intense desire, more than oxygen itself, more than one desires to breathe; the other it's more of intense suffering but the desire to release it is not quite all encompassing. Just food for thought.

Are there spirit guides to call upon for this?

Yes, actually there are. There are what you might call specialists, one may call upon.

So to letting go, how 'bout we start with the feelings you are holding in regards to your suicide? Would you care to take an imaginary walk with me? You've mentioned a bit about your experience, and those around you. So let's stroll down this path, and for the moment, forget about everyone else. Just for the moment. Let's focus on the most important person in this world...You!

You are holding judgement on yourself for your actions. I want to let you know, that God, spirits, angels, all those that be, hold no judgement on your actions. There is a great understanding, and compassion for what you have gone through and are going through at each moment. They can feel your pain as if it is their own, they can feel your struggles, and love you greatly. They hold a great admiration for your courage. So in our imaginary walk, you are your greatest critic, judge, but also your greatest savior. Within each of us, there is a connection, you may call it what you will, but it's there, like a whisper.

I'll leave it at that for now. I wish you well on your path.

Thanks for the replies, everyone.

Yes, I have actually considered a hypnotist for regression of past lives and other things.
One thing that always was on the back of my mind is when I was little, someone, I think my mother pointed out my birthmark on my belly and mentioned that they say scars like this are connected to past lives. This has been really on my mind a lot lately for some reason. So, the thought of regression is of interest to me. I have a hard time trusting doctors, so I am even more so with nontraditional professionals, then again I've never given them any serious consideration until now.

During an attempt on my life, I overdosed on antidepressants, which wow....instead of me sinking into an oblivion of darkness, my consciousness became acutely aware. I had visions of the future which some of them have actually come true, which is freaking me out to no end.

I also had visions of the past, which I suppose could have been memories of a past life. I was a child, in a country not of the one I am in now, traveling with my parents and in what seemed to be a war-torn country. I witnessed a child up a hill being shot in front of his family and in the next scene, I was by a very shallow body of water with what appeared to be bodies of people with spears or arrows in their bodies. It was a dark and dreary day, no sunshine, just the feel of utter despair and suffering among everyone. It was very odd.

The next scene, I was in a small cabin, in a very tiny bathroom with very little room to manuever, standing behind me was a man, which I felt was a father figure doing things from behind me at the sink area. I was afraid of beard hair as well as a certain type of dog fur.

So, yes, I do see how getting a hypnotist could possibly be of help. Can they also help with the visions I had of the future that are coming true?

I understand how I can't cross over until its my time, but I am so exhausted. I'm doing my level best to keep it together, but I am ready. Ready for sure.

[linen53]

Yes, if the hypnotherapist can contact your higher self, and if she is willing to tell you, you can get some answers to your visions.

I hope this will get you motivated to take action and not just think and talk of doing it. Do this for yourself. PM me if you just need to talk or need additional encouragement.

The past lives you have had sound very sad and full of unresolved grief.

[Belle]

linen53 has answered you well on the past lives but for the future, nothing is ever cast in stone, things are being re-written and there is free will all along. YOu have more power and more choice than you imagine.

[innerlight]

Depression is not a fun thing to go through, and for someone that has endured it for 40 years, I can imagine you are very, very tired. I know all too well how you fell, and can relate to everything you have said. I have been in those shoes. Not for 4 decades of it, but for long enough.

I have also been at low points in that time where I too was begging out to return to the light, and waking up saddened to still be here at those times. As well as going that route of suicide... And knowing what it can bring to those around you. And know that it was an experience that I would not want to go through again... But I also do not allow my life to be marred by others and how they feel. My happiness is my own goal and I will not let another get in the way of my happiness.

I have read the same things as linen53 mentions where suicide does not bring an end to the pain of torment one is upon themselves. Such as depression. Such feelings can continue to stay with an individual. And if one reincarnates into another life they could still be with them...

Originally Posted by Yumi14

I also had visions of the past, which I suppose could have been memories of a past life. I was a child, in a country not of the one I am in now, traveling with my parents and in what seemed to be a war-torn country. I witnessed a child up a hill being shot in front of his family and in the next scene, I was by a very shallow body of water with what appeared to be bodies of people with spears or arrows in their bodies. It was a dark and dreary day, no sunshine, just the feel of utter despair and suffering among everyone. It was very odd.

It sounds like during this episode you opened up to a part of your soul and lives that you had prior. It sounds like the pain and suffering that we in those lives, continued with you. I have read that at times such as these, we make verbal contracts with ourselves and the universe, and they continue to play out.. Until we heal them and rewrite them into better ones.

So past life regression may be beneficial to help you get through to that time to understand it and heal it. Working with a trained professional that can help you through the process.

Thanks everyone. I will certainly consider the past life regression. If my visions were indeed a clue to the misery of past lives and I am still in a state of misery now, well, I am beyond ready to make things right again...with me and for everyone I love. I'm determined to at the very least get it right in the next life, but frankly, I would like it to get better in this one before embarking on a whole new life. I really have been praying that I will keep the knowledge of all the wisdom I do have now from this life enough to remember in the next life, so I don't make mistakes again. I want that for everyone I love as well for me.