Observation

[Mysticrose37]

Falling.. Interesting concept. I was the one pushing away and running. He was simply bossy and assertive. I think sometimes I simply just amused him. By the way I could be a big kid.

[leader_of_ten]

in the end it always comes crashing down around the DF.

This makes me wonder if what I've been going through is at all TF/TS related. If nothing else, it helps to validate my suspicion that there is a marked gender bias afoot regards the matter.

I am a male. I ended a psychological abuser because of this. It's a horrible thing. I had that potential, account my upbringing, and here it was maximized. I suppose it had to be examined and excised. I'm grateful. Having said that, I was driven there, and that last is the opinion of two (female) therapists in two different states 1500 miles apart, and that after I divulged all the terrible things I've said and done here. Outside of those walls? It will never get me any traction because of my gender. The 'DF' here? It got to a point where they insisted I committed suicide, were asking God to destroy me, etc. and I can 10o,000% guarantee there are those on this board that would work to find a way to defend them. None of all of that is fury or bitterness or sour grapes, not anymore. I get it now. It's nothing new under the sun. The females in their clan have the same underlying/overarching outlook on men, that men are dim beasts to be guided, herded, exploited, and generally beaten back into line. Care to guess how the females in my own clan conduct themselves? And from that, what sort of results that yielded?